About my Life

2007-07-08T07:17:00.001-07:00

Just when I log in to blog this post, I saw this word Xiang Xing Jiu Neng Zhao Dao Zheng Ai. Translation is Believing will let you to true love. This is what I am searching for from the past till now. This words remind me of Lai Shi Yun question when I told her I already broken up with my girlfriend. Is there true love in this world? Although I just broken from a relationship, still I know true love is there. It always lies there wating for my arrival. It is just like a game of hide and seek. Is whether you find it or continue being the catcher.

Sad to annouce this but, I already broken up with my girlfriend yesterday at 10.09pm. Too sudden but I already prepared for this since the day we are together. Why I still confessed to her and ask her to be my girlfriend? I made a wrong move and now starting to regret. Thats why I owe her a big sorry. I shouldn't had confessed, I shouldn't had tried. Yet I owe her a thank you too. She let me experienced the wonders in a relationship, although I never even hug or kissed her once. During this time, I can safely say that I had grown up. I am matured already! But, I still will feel devastated even I lose nothing in that relationship. Its was my Chu Lian ad furthermore I not just lose a girlfriend, I lost my dream too. So people don't think that I am such a heartless person. Ke Shi Wo Na De Qi Fang De Xia! Translation I know how to pick it up and I must know how to let it go. =D

I am not trying to be impassive! Impassive is me! The nature of mine, I can't change it or try not to be. Have you all ever seen a clown or a joker weep? Its the same concept in my case. It will be too weird to see me emo in one end of a corner. To tell the truth I was very depressed yesterday, depressed till I can't sleep. I just closed my eyes and think alot of things throught the night and yes I am enlighten. I must be true to what I said to her also. I did not even shed a tear even through this. Not that I don't want but I made my vow. Do you all know the pain of unable to cry? Try making the vow to a star and you will know. Please people, I know I am a like a stone outside. No emotion only happiness, but I am not heartless. Do take note*!

I forget to add why we break off suddenly. Not any of us fault. We are fated but no affinity. In a relationship there is no right or wrong. She claims that she is not ready yet. We both know each other not that well and after 29 days later of knowing each other we become couples le. Now I truely understand of the meaning of not to rush. I think that the phrase for this relationship is gone because the other party love me not deep enough... I will always love you in silence...

All is lost no point clinging on the relation. Being friends is a good ending...

Sorry Wan Ling I never done my best and thanks for trying to accept me... C=

2007-06-19T20:17:00.000-07:00

I shall post before I leave Singapore. It had been long since I travelled out of this place of misery aka Shang Xin Di. Lol! Why I call this a place of misery? It is due to its size, where can you go in Singapore? Feel really depressed when looking. Singapore is actually a nice place, except for it's size. If only Singapore is much more bigger, the economy will rise even further. It doesn't matter much though, because I still LOVE SINGAPORE!!! Singapore is the place where I met all my friends and of cause my BELOVED DEAR DEAR!!! =D

Yesterday, Dear come to Anderson for a tour and I am the tour guide of cause. So long never been back to school and it still had the sleeping curse. Feel so sleepy there. Lol! Hey! But I am not the only one who feel sleepy. Hehe! Dear compliment our school is very beautiful, but our class. Er... Long Men Ke Zhan!!! So dirty and messy. How come so dirty and messy? My table also shifted place. Zzz...... Then we proceeded to the school library, we go there slack and chit chat. Lol! Everyone was laughing like hell and the usual insults. ArhahaX! And suddenly daren took my Dear phone and prank called Esther. Sabo her... =.= Dear called back explained and she want to befriend with Esther. Gosh... I am worried, what if Esther teach her or influence her bad stuff? Zzzz...... Quite some time later, we went back d n t room and slack. Lol!

After leaving the Sleepy Wood, I went to extend the dateline of my passport. The queue was so long that it took me 2 hrs to reached my turn. 135 people in front of me!!! I felt guilty letting Melvan they all to wait for me. I rushed down to Serangoon straight after I am done to sing K. =D

Ok barhx... I shall post till here, for more info of the KTV session you can proceed to Eugene blog and visit. Haha!

Dear I will miss you dearly while on the trip to Genting. You must takecare worhx! =D

2007-06-06T10:52:00.004-07:00

Just woke up in a delight mood. No No! Not delight but something more powerful and happy to describe my mood. Do you all believe in this thing call "the heart connection"? Tell you what it happened just a moment ago.

While I was sleeping, I sensed this sound, this very sharp sound. I thought could not be my hp so I went back to sleep. Then I found myself trapping on the bed with dilemma. So I couldn't sleep. While this was happening, suddenly and sense a strong urge to run to take my hp despite my tireness. I was stun to see my hp off, as I was expecting an sms or something. I switched on my phone immediately and bring it to my room. Hoping to sleep better, but I cant help looking at the phone. I was still worried I guessed. So I prayed hard in my heart that she was alright and was having fun. Suddenly there was this phone call came and the no. was unrecognisable.

It was from her! I am overjoy now and don't know what to say. Arrrg!!! I should speak more. Zzzz...... Wasted, who call me just wake up. Lol! Yesterday, I was really worried, now the boulder had vanished. Like paper was burn by a fire, turn to ashes and be gone. So happy =D

This is not the only occasion, but there are few times that happened too. So I solely believed that heart could be connected and I think my ling hun force me to go get my phone de. LOL! Sorry that is an insider joke so many people will never understand de. => Quote by Hong Hui

2007-06-06T10:52:00.003-07:00

Nothing to do, want to study but can't. =X Cannot let my Dear Dear see this, or else I'll be in a hot soup. >.<>

Then I gotten quite depress while reading a particular person blog. The ENGLISH is so GOOD that I couldn't help thinking can my english be as good as hers? TC!!! You got to teach me how to use those chim english already, because I was made depress partly because of you. >.<

Now I found this smiley >.<>

Yesterday, very estactic and yet very stress too. Haha! But now much better lerhx. =D With my dear around, I can smile the whole day. Wahahaha!!! I am a happy man with a happy smile. LOL!

2007-06-06T10:52:00.001-07:00

Everyone I apologised about my previous post, it is abit erm...... Lol! I was abit too overwhelmed by disappointment and fiery. Although I let the bygone bygone, still if you all understand what I trying to imply would be great. Haha!

Belated Congratulation to the Newly Wed: Eliza and Sammuel!

On Saturday, I went to attend my frd wedding lunch at Regeant Singapore 4 star hotel. I wore my most cooler formal shirt to there. Thats is my first time wearing it. Lol! The wedding ceremony was fun and the food was difinitely great. I was happy to be there and estactic to be invited to witness such a blissful moment.

Straight after the lunch ended, I went to my mum shop. To let her see how handsome her son had become. =D She shock to see me in that outfit, and can see her mouth wide open in disbelieved. Lol! I told her that shirt was brought by her and her mouth had open wider and it gotten larger when I told it was the first time I am wearing it. Actually I planned to wear that on graduation ball but it still a long way to go. Might as well wear it now. Haha!

Went to my mum shop, help her serve to customer and on my way to Cineleisure aka L2. Meeting Choon and Jia Zhe there to watch the B.O.T.Y (Breaking of the Year). Yu Ying caught us up shortly after we met. Then its time to barberque Pork. All of us was under the hot sun waiting for the competition/ performance to start. The weather was hot and all was sweating like there was no tomorrow. Saw Say Liang and his crew members, don't know whether did he spot me?

6.30pm, finally the show had started. Our seat was not a good one though, but at least got a quite clear view. All the competitors dance with eleglance and Radikal Forze indeed live up to its name. Such a strong footwork the team has, all the step mesmerized me. Floor Technique was a fierce competitors to Radikal Forze and I was shocked when Radikal Forze was announced the winner. In terms of style, power moves and teamwork FTC sure had the upperhand but RF method of battling was safer. I was quite disappointed to seen Jr absent from the glory ground. Say Liang did a great job and he seems to be very famous in that area in the street. When he do the moves, everyone was cheering for him and we all did the Joey favourite action. Because it is the sign to acknowledgede the profession in that particular person. Lol!

Yesterday was the day that I will remember for life! I don't know how to express my happiness in words. I am too overjoy!!! Whole world going to know what is happening soon. =D The news is spreading quite fast like a wild fire. And I am sure those who knows are very happy for us! =D

Finally its raining and I shall end my post here. Haha! I am a happy man...=D

2007-06-06T10:52:00.000-07:00

The unhappiness inside me, I don't know where to vent out. So I once again decided to seek help from the power of blog again. I help not because I am not angry. It is because I don't want to ruin gladys birthday. As her best friends don't you all know how overboard you go? Do you all even know that keith and I don't even intend to go escape? How much money we wasted and didn't even make it worth. Our mood are even ruined. I can choose to curse you all to oblivion and spoiled all your plans too. But I choose not to, because I don't want to mak history repeat itself. I am sure you all knew about 7-11 and I don't want see that again.

I was tramatized by how you all handle things. Still have the cheek to try to chased us off. You know the consquences of that if you all did succeed? And one last thing... YOU ALL NEVER EVEN SAY SORRY OR SHOW SOME GRATITUTE TO US OTHER THAN GLADYS!!! IF WE EVER DAO YOU ALL SHOW YOU OUR UNHAPPINESS, WE HAD ALL RIGHT TO DO SO!!! Next time we ps... don't ever blame us!!!

*Here is the story about just now. I won't keep this as a secret because we are not in the wrong. I am so unhappy that I truely needed to vent out. Please mind your language if one of you intend to tag or complain about this post. Don't mind you complain, infact you all don't have the right to complain.

Daren, Mel, Keith and I suppose to meet at Mel house at 12.30pm. I went late and in the end all reached Bishan bus stop at 1.15+pm. Since the journey is long, we are really late and I thik we made gladys and Lai Shi Yun waited for nearly an hour. My apology to you two. While on the journey Esther called and ask where are we and she use this phrase," we are going to shot you all shortly."( Wrong Word though ) And when we reached Escape, (Down Town East there for those who don't know) they still at AMK MRT waiting for Mei Sen. Knowing that today going to Xing birthday still seek help in school about sch work till so late. I don't know what you are thinking about but at least shouldn't make the others so late too. After quite sometime we recieved news that they gone to bake cake instead of meeting us in Escape. This totally spoiled our mood and too down to play any rides. Can't even enjoy while playing. And I never even heard any sorry or thank you from them, even though the damage had been done. At least a thank you will cool us a little. Just a little and also at least won't make me that angry. Nevermind, still want us to bring gladys to Si Mei!?!?! Shouldn't you all be here at the first place?

Don't know the baking cake part is already planned or just think of it the idea? If it is already plan idea, is even worst!!! Why ask us to waste money to go Escape and spoiled everyone mood just to suprise one? Can you all please care about the other people feelings? While we are moodless, suddenly Daren phone rang and it was Eugene. Eugene wanted us to meet him for dinner at Hou Gang after that. I knew something was wrong immediately but I did no action. Until when we decided to leave, this is where we hold the power to spoil everything or help you all do something to repay. And I decided to be a good guy, so I convinced the others to go to meet Eugene for dinner. On the way there I sms him to try to get some info. Knew it they had plan along. This where another party was made used.

When we reached there and finished our dinner that time, I got to know that they intend to chase us off. What kind of friend are you all calling? Shouldn't you all show some trust? We help you all this far are not just for show. Is to solve things the best way as possible. Thats why I purposely made all of us stay. And of course we wanted to stay!!! Remember one thing, don't ever use ruse on people with IQ higher than yours. I promised if the same thing happen to you all again I will not help le. Trust me one person do make a difference.

Hopless soul... I can make you perished!!! Never repeat the lights of it insolence......

2007-06-03T01:28:00.000-07:00

The test of MR.Ah.HOCK!!! Not advisable for those who have a weak heart... And is for fun fun de, pls pardon those word that shouldn't be in the test...lol!

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2007-06-03T00:50:00.000-07:00

Try my new friend test... For those who think my previous test was hard... It is more easiest...Lol!

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2007-05-30T20:20:00.000-07:00

Happy Vesak Day to all! Back to post something, or else people would start complaining. Is not that I am abandoning my blog, is just that I prefer to use the time to do other things. Lol! Anyway blog is not about the quantity of your post, but to let people know how you feel about something or someone. It is about the quality and the structure and as I said not quantity. So hope you all will understand. Now I think I Will only post when I have the urge to, just like now. Haha!

Just watch a movie call Zhao Shu or 2 Young. The show is very touching and the make me had a hard tie holding back my tears. Too touching until almost cry. Zzz... Lol but luckily manage not to have any drop of tears in my eyes. A recommended show to watch. Watched it when you all have the time barhx. =D

The show main character is Fang Zhu Ming ( Chen Long Son ) I don't like him personally but the show is nice so I watched on. The show is about 2 young couple that is in love. They recklessly had sex after being drunk and that made the girl pregnant. After the girl father knew about this, he blew at his top and forbit the girl to be with the guy. He even lock her at home without communicating device. She somehow manage to escape and eloped with the guy. They found that they had a hard time surviving on their own and become very depressed. The guy try his best to hold all responsibility but luck was not on his side. He got sack numerous time due to some things cork up. So in te time of desperateness he seek theft. Luckily the guy parents found them at the right time just before he girl was about to give birth. The baby was prematured due to lack of nutrient and because the mother can only aford to eat can food everyday. When the mother was giving birth the father was being prosecuted for abduction because of the newborn child grandfather reporting to the police. And so they brought the matters to court. The grandfather was a rich lawyer and at the end part he defend the father. Such a huge twist but a quite funny part. Because his expression changed from cool to cheerful.
In the end, the father still had to serve his punishment in rehabitation centre for 3 months. I think the judge mad a good choice, so that he can think of how to takecare of his new family within this 3 months.=D

The moral of this story is: Don't get marry until you are able to do so. This is what my mum always told me and I feel that it is very true. This words make an impact in my heart. If you love somebody it does not means that you have to be with her. It only means you must let her e happy.

The best quote: The girl to the guy mother:" I don't feel that he is making me suffered. I love him that is enough." And the other one is the guy's mother to the guy's father:"I also don't feel I suffered with you, during all this times I never had one quarrel with you. Although you never say it but I know you love me deep inside."

Watched this show and you sure won't regret and you also may understand why me and choon make that vow to the stars. LOL!!! I promised I will work hard from now on le. I don't want my wife to suffer with me next time. Wahaha! My dream age to get married is 22 years old, so now I must start saving already.Zzz......Never mind is for love. Wo Wei Ai Er Sheng!!!

2007-05-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

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2007-05-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

Recently, I am so stressed that I do not want to do anything but sleep. Stress because of alot of factors and not just one. I always tend to take things lightly because I solely believe in seriousness was not born in first. So this suggest that what yu can solve with being serious, can be solve more effective without being serious. Of course at times, you must be serious of something to let people know whats right and wrong. In this case, to make the efficiency go up you have to be serious.

For me that is not the case. I want to be myself and solve this my way. But there is too much things cork up my style. In seriousness, I can't concentrae well in solution, and it take more time for me to find a good plan. In the end, I still failed to help. I really cant bear to see people in wreck feeling. I will try my best to help in any way I can, but as for the thing we did our best. Hope you understand my friend and don't be in that condition for a very long time. We still had to study for O'level. XD

I believe good things will come at the right time. Your destined one will also come at the right time I believe. Time really let us reflect upon ourselves and what you have done wrong can be change now. Do your best and I am sure you will have good blessing.

A man blinded with ____ cant find its way......

2007-05-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Clement and Happy Mother's Day to all!!!

I had quite an adventure yesterday and today. It was absolutely fun and exciting. It had alot of climax. If I am given another chance to write the essay memories it will be a perfect piece. XD Yesterday, I do alot of things for the 1st time. You see Clement because of you I lost so many virgin of things at one go. Lol! Ok I going to post some of our adventure out.

We gather at Vivo for the most fabulous meal with Clement. Actually I don't plan to eat anything and just freeload the plain water. But aiya must give face to our dear friend Clement and this fellow Hong Wei and of cause the monkey and so call Issac Newton Teckie Choon. Lol! Or else I had to prepare to hear some teaching or doctrine. My reason for not eating because I never plan to pay and it is very paiseh for people to pay so much and all you do is eat. Haix... Never mind, I plan to contribute a small amount of money. So, soon after our Project A mission recieved. Everyone scattered and find means and ways to cheat Clement and find the best way to reach his house before he returns home finding his friend.

A girl name Wan Ling and I recieved one of the toughest job. Phew, our scheme was not expose, it was really a very close shave. We still must act like couple!!! I very paiseh lor. First time in this kind of situation. Lol! And still there are people who treat being lost as fun. SianX! Clement house is super hard to find. Lol! And must remember who is my invisible friend Andy hor. Lol!

Ok now I post about today, I went to buy cake with my sister and Hong Hui. Then meet up with my Bro accidentally. Lol! Went to Far East Plaza with artless confidence and at the same moment plan what to do. So the final plan was to lure my mother to a big round back to the new best2 shop and sing my Guai Ban Happy Birthday to Mother's Day. Then shouted MAMEE WO MEN AI NI at the end of the song XD!!! I am the only one who shouted it though, but I can see from her face that she was really move and surprise. She said it was the best mother's day she had so far in her life. I am really glad to hear that. So me and Hong Hui stayed and play chess whole day. Lol!

I will post till here and good night to everyone. I am so stressed that I am going to explode.

Cry of the lost soul in dilemma......

2007-05-04T18:41:00.000-07:00

Yo! Yesterday finally meet up with Jowell. The main purpose was for the tixes , but also at the same time meet up with this good friend of ours. We waited and waited at the Orchard MRT and finally he called. He said he will reached there late.XD Then 15 minutes later, our star arrived. We went to Best2 1st new branch. It was big and spacious. Din expect to see Shi Gong and Shi Ma. We went to eat soon after, and chit chat abit then we move to taka for a shoping spree. We walk for sometime and decided to settle down in mcdonald and awhile later we went home in seperate ways.

Now should be a time to study, but alot of people not in the mood so do I. How? I don't know what could improve my motivation.Haix just move on and see how barhx.lol!

Post till here.....

2007-04-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

Haix... Just when I free to blog, I lost those passion. I try to post as best as I can.

Last Friday, Infocomm Club " Graduation Ball " made alot of people very emmo. Those tears of farewell, those tears of memories were shed by some. Its a memorable day indeed but my tears still not flowing. I did feel emmo but I did not show it out, I won't cry due to the promise. I travell home with those past memories with me. The only time I was hardworking in media club was Sec 2 and Sec 3. Other time I was just slacking all the time, remember the days we muting the teachers mike without getting caught. So funny and the teachers were still so blur and did not know what was going on. The times, the days, the place too much to remember. PA crew all of you will be in my heart forever. I will miss you all!!! Jia Lin Kamate and be a good leader of the crew! All the best...XD

Wei Liang I know that you have been rather emmo for quite a long time. I don't know how to put it to words how I feel and I wish you all the best. Just a word of knowledge, I think you had became emmo for the wrong reason. Love or crush is something sweet, something happy, something that warm hearts. It is not something to tear for, not something to emmo and not something to sad about. Love is what people long for and make people envy! Hope you understand what I meant. Wish you luck to improve your emmotion......

The longer it goes, the harder it take......

2007-04-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

Suddenly have the urge to post. Today post shall be a super random post. Due to the fact that my life is simple, as I am trying to achieve the highest level of enjoyment. XD What do that mean? It sound so chim that I don't even have a single plan how to achieve that. Since I am a person that can pass exam without much studies, so this will be quite easy attainable for me. I think the highest level of enjoyment is that nothing in this world will ever worries you again. You can solve problem with smiles over you face. I found this quite useful that I smile most of the time, that even Siva had enough of me! LOL! I had a nickname call the Prince Lol! Name by Eunice. haha! Okay, I think i shall blog about other stuff or else I will go round and round non-stop.

Lets talk about the 3C of Keith new theory. The Cool, Cute, Chio, which one of those represent you? The 3C does not stand by by itself, it holds branches. E.g. Handsome is the branches of cool e.t.c...... This theory is still by Keith. Lol! Actually I think I hold 2 in the 3C, oh gosh I am really bhb! Haha! But seriously it is true, most of the time when I am alone without friends, I just had the cool looks on me and even with someone I knew I do that too. When I feel I had nothing to talk about with them I remain quiet, so quiet that people actually start to think I am anti-social. But with my friends I talk alot and start my lame crap shit. Lol! Most of the time my friend is so funny that you can see me laughing all the time. Which in term the Cute. Still there is special condition to those for me, like when I am down or there is just something I must do seriously or there is an unkown chio girl around. Haha! So now you all know that I am not smiling all the time. Hehe!

The hidden angel smiles......

2007-04-14T07:30:00.000-07:00

The show that I anticipated, I had finally watched it. It gave quite a big stir in our class and now I knew why. The show was none other than 300. It was a nice movie with great graphical experience of the movie. I like the storyline and indeed the good triumph over the bad! XD

So long never blog for a reason, I had no passion or the feel to blog. Lol! Maybe due to my lazinest? Haha! I had not much things to blog about apart from what I did today. We went to Daren house for mahjong and play basketball later. As usual Keith would be the one whom brighten up the day. He even create some rythm and song for mahjong. =.= Example: Eat or pong or toker toker tong... Wahaha! We we like what was that? Lol!

Ok, I think I shall stop here. Next time then I blog more. Cya! NiteZ!!!

2007-04-06T10:14:00.000-07:00

My tired soul wanted to rest, but it rather blog first. The feeling and emmotion will not be the same after moments of periods. So better to do it straight while the source is still fresh in mind. Fun, fun and still fun were the words to describe my trip to East Coast with a few friends. It suppose to be a gather, which turn out to be a outing. Due to people were not free! Was psing my other group of friends worth it? Maybe so?

We went to have luch first at Burger King and I had a big double Whopper meal. Not really nice, I thought. Should have gone to Mcdonald instead, because I like the double cheese burger and the fact that it is cheaper. So straight after we went to rent our bugget bikes. The rental fee was just $5 for two hours and a free drinks. The bikes not really good though. We had so much fun, beat boxing, screamos, singing, chit chatting, e.t.c...... Kian Yong ride bicycle is really dangerous must keep a look out. You might not know when you will be bang by him. LOL!

Indeed it was a right choice? Hehe!

My Story:
Every pages a story, every chapter a sorrow.
Every book a quote, every series a moral.
But it will not be complete without you.
Be my princess......

2007-04-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

Time to have a great time in my blogging world again. 2 days ago, I did my 2.4km run for NAFA. This year I did an impossible, because this was my very first time I ran non-stop. I came in first in our class due to the fact that Daren and Zhan Yu miscaculated their rounds. LOL! The squad 6 Captain and Vice-Captain, did they plan it? Wahaha! Although I finished the run within a good time, still I endured pain. The pain around my diaphrm area which know as stiches and the cramp at my leg. Never mind since everything had ended for me, then I can forget about running 2.4km this. Woot!

Yesterday, Gladys and Mei Sen ask me one question. Will you put the photo of your girlfriend in your wallet? I said yes but I couldn't explain why to them at the point in time. I ask them the same question and they said they won't. They also couldn't explain the reason. I seriously think that putting your girlfriend picture is a sweet thing to do. It can give you motivation when you lose faith in something you do. E.g. when you lose faith to work and you saw your girlfriend picture in your wallet, you would gain motivation by thinking I must work hard to get marriged with my girlfriend. When you are lonely and you look at your girlfriend picture, you will remember some of the sweetest moments together and you won't feel as lonely when your girlfriend was not around you. This is it and hence, I will put my girlfriend picture in my wallet in the future.

To My Angel:
Once I thought I saw an angel, figure so captivating.
Every word said a lyric, every sentence a song.
But no, it wasn't an angel.
It was you.

2007-04-02T07:02:00.000-07:00

The weather was perfect and the temperature was just so right, but my mood was down in the morning. Due to several reason and and several unfortunate event made me very moody. I tried very hard to swap with my alter ego and luckily I succeed. Once a fortune teller told me I am a person who will not be depress, even if so I will become normal after a short while. I found this quite true. Thanks to Kungful mahjong too that I be able to be cheerful so fast. Lol!

Yesterday, I went to Sentosa and the weather was so nice but I have no passion to go to beach. I just want to slack the whole day but I can't. Never mind is worth to sacrifice for class gathering. I slack with Kian Yong at the rock just above the sea. We talk like we use to and this time with a beautiful scenery. We talk about my music life and abit about my love life. I even beatbox and he rap along. It was good. Heh! Heh! Btw to my peers, is not that I do not want to confess is just that I cant bring out this kind of courage to approach her on that. When times get longer, things get more harder.

After we got bored, we joined the rest in the ball games. In the soccer I scored two goals and the game last only 10 minutes or so. We played other games later. We had this frisbee game and there is penalty on that. If one player failed to pass properly on failed to catch the frisbee they had to decide whether to chose a true or a dare. I got a true and a dare. ROAR!!! I first time play and they bully me. Zzzz...... I said out who I had a crush on, but luckily I think I said too soft and not many people hear. Haha! I doubt they even remember too. XD

In the fall of the night,
my butt hurts, my mucleous flowing out
I pretend to grumble......
But in truth, it was me who cant bear to leave......

2007-03-31T07:52:00.000-07:00

In the afternoon when I am in the midst of the game, two of my old buddies came and visit me. They give me a suprise visit. Lol! Its quite a pity, because I am about to leave house to Keith house. So when we leave my house I accompany them to Toa Payoh central and we went seperated ways. On our journey, we talk about some things on romance. All of them had already stead before except me. Sob!

The greatest reason why I still not in a relationship is due to my shyness I suppose. From the 1st crush till now, I never even confess in person once. Although I so call "confess" once and it was not in person. So I does not considered it to be a confess. Furthermore, she neither reject nor accept. Heard alot of stories after that. It hurts me more than the person when I make her cry. Who to believe and who not to doesn't matter anymore. Now, the question is when I am going to confess to the girl I currently like? Maybe I am terrified of rejection or maybe if I know she likes me things would be easier. I trust fate would give me this chance in times to come, if thats is our affinity.

When to eat scissors cut curry rice at Jalan Besar with Kei they all. After the famish meal, we went to bugis and do a window shopping. We got whole lots of laughter during the journey. Melvan forgot to sit down on the seat in the MRT when the train was moving from Marina to Raffles place and his seat was taken away. LOL!

Sometimes, I feel that my blog is the only friend that I can really count on for the let off of my burden. In school and anywhere else, I seem like a very cheerful and a guy with no worries but deep down, I cant lie to myself. I also need someone to release my trouble and need someone to consult for guidance when in dilemma. But at home. Zzz! I pity my godfather, I always quarrel with him and this is one way to let all that out. But I don't like to quarrel with him either, cant he just let me have my freedom? Zzzz...

There is smoke in my eyes, and that is your soul......

2007-03-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

It's time for me to post again. There is so much inside me and I don't know how should I express it out? I shall try whatever I can to post.

First, I should start with oral. Miss Shamila give a conversation topic to Gladys asking her," Who is the person you admire most?" What about my most amire person? I admire my mum most. There is too much reasons in this. She teach me the way of life, she even made me improve on alot of my skill indirectly. She convert me from a guy who likes to showoff to a compose and humble guy. Although I kept singing and beatboxing, but I don't consider it as show off. It has became my habbit already and further more I never sing or beatbox using my high level technique. Still got alot of things to say in this topic but I do not wish to share.

There is this question reutering in my head. How to define a good friend? I thought I already understand, but actually I am confuse. Never mind, I will get the answer someday. The answer that I seek, never fail to find me. Once again, I will be good to all people around me. If you have any problem and you are willing to share, then you will gain my help. Within troubles, there is still something call friends. At least that is what I believe.

ROAR! My hand is hurts from break dancing. I am getting hang of quite alot of things and I am improving very fast. Within a year I believe I can considered myself as a bboy. Yes, I can do! Hence, I shall succeed.

I hope I am not accurate to know who____. This is the only time I really hope I am wrong and I hope even if it is true, don't let me find out. I will be moodless even though I wont be depress.

Beneath your soul, is there thoughts of me?

I am a untrustable kid when I was young. I tell lies and spread others secret. Until one day, I finally realised my mistake when I was in Primary 5 and I became a most sealed lip ever. Lol! The thing that motivate me is from a show......

2007-03-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

A badminton spree happened today. 6 hours of badminton for some but for me only 3 hours. In the meanwhile of the badminton I went for bd training. Learn alot of things today! Although I get to play 3 hours but still got a match never play. Weiliang and Me(note: I purposely cap it) vs Gladys and Mei Sen. I caps the m in Me because everyone all in capital letters so I don't to be odd one out. LOL! Lame...=.= Then Mei Sen say she want to 1 on 1 with me. She comfirm wiin liao lor. If you don't believe bet $1 each and I really make it happen XD. Greedy haha!

Went home that time I went to buy my cd, everyone ps me except Keith and Eugene. Yay! I appreciate that, especially keith because he know how to recipocrate. This show I never see his character wrongly. Thanks both of you make my trip not too lonely.

When I reach home leg and arm all very tense up. Enlightenment for me, it make me realise that how slack I am in my training of weights nowadays. Someday I must recover my routine of exercise again!

Deep in my sunken hearts, all you can see......

I am a bad boy in Pri 4-6, I did gangster man. But I not one, I even more fearsome than them I should say......

2007-03-22T05:49:00.000-07:00

I cut my hair and now my pimples are visible, damn! I will destroy my pimple by this week. I decided to buy a Warcraft 3 battle chest as I feel insecure as now I solely depend on battle.net because my zion is down. If I kept using the cd key of other I would feel weird and tend to not concentrate well as I afraid others want to play too. So this is why I decided to buy my very 1st warcraft 3.

Today ran 8 rounds for PE, super cool. If my nafa is the same time as the time I finished the rounds I will be estactic. Wahaha! I even walk one round but my time is 10.58min. Yeah! PE is 1hr but we only get to run. SianZ!!! Not really happy after PE, I think I smells and today it happen several times to me that I see things that I shouldn't be seeing and I don't want to see. Zzzz...... I hate to see things that I hate to see, I rather I did not see it! Who would want to see them? LOL!

Ya! Maths extra lesson I finally get to outshine my talents. Finally a topic that I am good at. Wahaha!

I stop using milk bottle to drink milk only till I am Pri3

2007-03-20T06:32:00.000-07:00

Alot of people asking me to join campus superstar. My answer is no!!! There is alot of factor in my answer. The First was because of O'level and another because I am confident that my level of singing is beyond that of campus superstar. Even though there is people in campus sing better than me but I perfer to be known as an adult than a child. So Project Superstar here I come. XD
Now I had no time to train my singing, but wait for me I WILL BE BACK!!! Wahahaha!!!

Have you all ever wondered why things happen? Things happen for reason that is for sure, but why different people have different happenings? Isn't it unfair? Or is it the test for different people. Everytime I met something hard I treat it as a test to fulfilled. Sometimes I passes but other time I failed to do so. Look at things in other perspective and may success be with you.

I look into your eyes in accident and this is the first time after a year I have shy away again. ARR!!! Not just me, but you too......

I do not detest my father, I despise him......

2007-03-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, went to class gathering. I thought there will be alot of people cause KY say there will be other classes people attending also. Ended up there is only 6/5 people + 2, haha! Heard that JY scared of me. LOL! So funny lar, just because I like her once doesnt mean she must afraid of me. I will not eat her up or stuff like that. Then there I saw this particular old friend and I find her resemble _____ in some ways. Didn't notice it till now, haha! When I look upon her, my hearts is with you. Thats is what I meant of so far yet so near.

Later after eating dinner at pizza hut, we went to talk and Choon join us on the way. I think people mistook us as gangster. We walk in a very huge group and we laughing at each other weak points on the way. So funny and I laugh till I never laugh before. KY is the worst of all no matter what or everywhere of him get insulted. Feel abit sorry him, but all this is only play play so I think no one will take it to heart.

When we about to go home, we talk about supernatural and stuff like that. This make alot of people don't there to walk home.LOL! What is there afraid about? When you never do anything that harm people they won't huant you. XD

Maybe when you know the reason why you love someone, you will love them even more. My first piority to love someone is to know why I love her......

I feel terrible each time I failed to help someone......

2007-03-16T00:45:00.000-07:00

I had change my blogskin due to popular demands. And thanks to Keith I finally settle down my chosen blogskin. Yet, we do have a little problem here. THE POPUPS STILL HERE!!! Lol! Later going to the Primary School Gathering. I am very anxious about later now. Woot, it has been long since there is a gathering like this. XD

Now Feister had a screwed life. Haha! We gamble, we eat____, we ____ ____ and __ ____ ____. Wahahaha! It is fun though. Keith was like father forgive me for I have sin, Daren was like HOLY SHIT! Melvan cant stop laughing, HE GONNA LOSE IT! Me? No comment......LOL!

In Chinese and English, there is so much character and so much words, but I have only one favourite word. That word is hearts. Next time then I eleborate on this, cause now I lazy to think. Haha!

My secret code: TUWS

2007-03-12T19:31:00.000-07:00

I am not suppose to be here right now, but I wake up late for maths extra lesson. So HECK CARE liao! Wahaha!

There is this particular song I like it alot. The first time I heard it I was deeply attracted to it already. Its melody seem like peircing through my heart. The lyrics sang make those lost memories appeared again. I decided to learn that song but till now to no avail yet. I cant seem to sang that feel out. I will try slowly, cause I dont have time for singing now.

Histugya blog got this quote:" What is not yours will never be yours."

Quite true to some extent, but in my dictionary I don't have this. I beileve what is not yours can be yours. The probality is low...Yes it is. If you work hard enough you can turn a low carbon steel rod to a gold moutain. The only thing is how much you sacrifice for it? How much desire you put in it? Do other people give in more than you? That is the question to be answered by thyself.

I long for family warmth......

2007-03-10T21:28:00.000-08:00

I am feeling better today. My emmotion has calm down already. To achieve it I did something insane. As my nick was Prince of Fire, so Keith always make fun of this and say Prince on Fire. LOL! Hence, I make everyone in Fire! Wakekekeke!

The Pictures is on the post before this. It's abit lame so endure with it. LOL!

2007-03-10T21:09:00.000-08:00

Presenting the new century Ghost Rider, Ghost Rider Kia. Can't let in fear! Flame is my path, Fire is my destiny is the quote before he transform......

The new century Ghost Rider Kia. Has put Shuang Fei on fire, next moment they become GHOST RIDER!!! ROAR!!! GRRRRRR!!!!!

Then again, he change his friends to Ghost Rider. Muhahaha!!! FEAR US!!!

The Ghost Rider FeiSteR had went bonkers. Becareful they are coming for you bad souls......

(This is the only pic my eyes got cool fire effect.) The dooms sight......"Your blood is staint with innocent soul......"

2007-03-10T03:22:00.000-08:00

Dissapointment is filled in me. So many things that I can see so clearly but yet I choose to be blinded in the illusion. Maybe I am a person so easily influence. I try to be there for everyone who needed me but when in times to come I am alone when I needed help. Feel so helpless sometimes and no one came to help me. It is time for me to fight alone again! When I am drowning in a deep ocean and when none came to help, I will find the planks that would save my life. I just woken up from illusion that I chose to stay in.

I know god is giving me this test to depends on myself and not to rely on others. Please note my god is not christ. No offence, but I don't believe in a religion that it will only save its believeth or being a sinner when you never done anything wrong. I am proud to say that I am a mixture of Buddhist and a Taoist.

I will do what my mother say already. I will try not to help others, until I can help myself. For me when I failed to save a soul I will be very depress but I will overcome it. Like I will overcome those dissapointment and found a true meaning in all this.

I most of the time will leave the best for the last. But sometimes I will not when there is a sequence.

2007-03-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

Everyone is so high so happy, but for me I end my term 1 with a dull feeling. What is that to be joyful for me when my result is so lousy! I not a person without feeling or I not person who only know how to laugh, I will feel sad too! It is not just my result that make me so dull, but my friends result too. I care for them also, although I don't show it. When they get bad result it spoil my mood too. Especially you......

You really change alot. Even though you appear happy most of the time but I sense the stressness in your eyes. When I look into your eyes I knew straight that something is bothering you. Last time you are not like that, your result is very good. I am quite dissapointed not just with you but myself too. I noticed that your action is abit different from last time after you mixed with different company. I seriously miss the old you infinity and beyond. Never mind something will still never change even in this world is totally change, that is my ____ for you!

Today:
Have my very first breakdance session with JR and Sei Liang. Thanks you all! I will practiced very hard for you all. Lol! Since you have such faith in me that I can join competition next time. I will do the favour for you. XD

On the way to eat before the breaking session I saw Fiona and she transfer to another school! Now then I know... =.=

I have plan out what should I do in March holiday already......

I have another blog and I shall reveal the blog when the time is right. There only have one post. Is either when I don't have the crush anymore or I got rejected or when she and I are together shall I reveal it......

2007-03-08T05:41:00.000-08:00

Some parts of bit and pieces of me had return but it still not me yet. Finally my speed of walking is back at my past pace, I am a speed demon! But for some reason I feel something is still missing in me! What is it? It makes me feel very empty and an undescribable feeling. Maybe I am just worrying too much or am I just too paranoid? One thing is for sure and it is that recently I am been asking too much question even if it is a rheotical ones. I know the freaking thing and I just kept asking things like I do not know! Whats up with me???

Today moodless, still worried about what to do for my studies? How to get my Ace? Is the CA too hard or is it that I really don't have the ability to score high? I did try to try hard but I failed myself.

Accompanied Keith to find his folio and on the way buy his PS3. It did not went well as his folio could not be found and PS3 had not arrivied yet. We waited for a freaking 1+ hours and decide to leave till the next day to buy. I brought my mahjong game and won two rounds out of 4 and it is not as fun as the idols mahjong which I played in my younger days. Yup on the way we met Eunice and her boyfriend. Haha! I pronouce his name correctly! Wahaha!

The last time I drop my tears is for my father and for that I promise not to cry anymore. A true man tears is worth honouring but not those people like Ashaf(no offence). My tears worth more than theirs! I truely wonder who will be the first one to make me cry again?

2007-03-07T04:36:00.000-08:00

Moments of truth, the music that I must face. The result of not studying hard and still slacking, I am screwed! I am so d*** demoralise by my total score, I had no one but myself for this cause. Forgive me people that I promised. I make another empty promises yet again. I once said that I will finish up all the homework and pass up it on time, I failed to do it too. I think that I really let down alot of people including myself.

I am losing it, I must help myself from now on. Please give me strength to move on. I felt that I am not really myself, even though people kept telling me that I am the only one they never seen a change in character even all others had change. But I can feel it that I start to lose myself, I can't just lose it! Is it due to the intense stress causing by the terrible O' level. Or is it some other things that are eating up my soul? Can't figure out this much and my d n t are lagging behind!!! What else could I do? I will use the March holiday to find back myself and find back the one burning in flames of hopes and trust. The destiny is chosen by me and not others. I must decide and work doubly hard for it.

I once said that I crush somebody for 6 years but actually it is just 3 years. I said that because 6 years sound cooler. Haha! What was I thinking?

I want you to know how I feel about you but with the help of no others...

2007-03-03T19:35:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Mum

Yesterday was my mum birthday and can considered it as not a happy one. One of the thing I am most afraid of happen to me again( NOT BECAUSE OF CREEPY CRAWLERS! ). I saw someone in need of help but I was helpless, I can't save him and I know he did no wrong. I hate being helpless to help! It break my hearts when I saw my cousin getting beaten up his father with a cane BECAUSE OF US!!! My mum even break into tears and I almost shed a tear but I am able to hold it back. It is very hard to really visualize how the atmosphere in the area but if you were me you will understand.

When my uncle was beating up my cousin I really had a strong urge to rush in to the room to stop him and to scold him. He did not even know what really happen and he start wacking. He just kept shouting why you never listen to me? WHY? Maybe my cousin got wrong but can't he use his brain to think? It is my mum birthday, even a child know how to make my mum happy but him? A WANG EN FU YI FREAK! Has he forgotten how my mother help him? How much my mother give to clear his debt? He didn't even pay back and it is a huge lum sum of money. My mother just want a HAPPY-BIRTHDAY thats all and you make her sad.

Not that I don't want to save my cousin but if I do it, he will get harsher punishment when I am gone. What in my mind at the point in the time is to ask him, what is the purpose of him beating my cousin? What is the reason for not letting my cousin celebrate my mum birthday? Is the purpose of beating because he disobey you or is it because of your damn face? Is the reason for not letting my cousin celebrate my mum birthday to anger my mum?

After saying so much I know you all want to know what really happen that day. My cousin came down to Far East Plaza alone just to say happy birthday and to celebrate my mum birthday by treating her to a meal. He is just 11 years old! He came with the guilt of disobeying his father but obey my grandmother. Whose power is greater? Of cause grandmother right? In the end my cousin treat my mum, my brother and of cause me, although later the price he gave was half as mum's friend return him half of it. Thats is the happening yesterday. Finally we went to his house and you know what happen next......

I am afraid of creepy crawlers!!! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!!

2007-03-02T06:27:00.000-08:00

Yo! I am back for some posting again. This will be my secong post today.

As you all know we had Cross Country today. After the Cross Country when I take out my umbrella, Mei Sen suddenly start a conversation. The conversation is about we two being the weird in the Libra in horoscope. Lol!

She said that," look at Joe and us, we are like heaven and earth compare to him."( I rephrase this in my own words but meaning is the same. ) She also note that she and I is so active, but Joe is so quiet. I had think through this process of conversation on my way home from J8. Lol! Nothing to do marhx. Heh! Heh! Am I really that talkative? Is it my real true self to be monkey all the time? The answer is a big NO! I am not that active by nature, I am actually a quiet person and yup like what Mei Sen say we only are so active when we are with someone close. Example our close friends, family e.t.c....... I actually label myself as a deep in thoughts person. Which means that I always think through alot.

I don't know about Libra horoscope characteristic, but I do know about my chinese horoscope another type and it is more chim. This horoscope got alot of type, if I am not wrong is 30 in total. From my chinese birthday, I am the Xin, which also means heart. It says that I had two type or more character. A person who awaits true love and will stay loyal to the person he love( Eat Love ). The horoscope still say alot more but I lazy to post out. It is very accurate, because I once told all that to Keith and he agree with me and it. My mum and alot people too. Haha! Chinese way of finding characteristic from horoscope is much better than the English one, I suppose.Forgot to say this but Joe, Mei Sen and I have the same birthday and born in the same year. Same birthday does not imply that got same characteristic but same birthday and same year do have.

I think I will post till here.

GoodnightZ......

2007-03-01T19:16:00.000-08:00

Today Cross Country was a screwed up, 5/1 blockade also screwed up. Waste my prescious to try to block people and still get block somemore. =.= I was block by Wei Hao and he was block by someone else. I run till the middle park of Bishan Park and I stop running due to earlier my shoelace dropout and I must fixed it and it happen a few times, so cant continue. When I stop it is very hard for me to run back as I lost all my stamina already. Hence, I anyhow run run until my shoulder ache. Then, saw Marina, Mastura and Mei Sen, so I decided to run at the same pace with them. Haha! Cannot lose to girls...Wahaha! Last but not least being back at Bishan Park is GREAT!!!

I miss posting emmo blog but I don't think I can post something like this out now. Maybe my English become worst or else I not in that mood to post emmo blog. I try posting some next time round.

Yesterday, meet up with Choon and we have some talks and beat boxing session together. Actually we are planning to play basketball but the Community Center floor is not on condition for us to play. So sad, feel like playing bball yesterday. My Mother birthday is tommorrow and I try to find present for her with Choon yesterday, but I failed to find a good present. Zzzz......

My favourite letters in alphebet are A, K, M, N, Z ... There is a reson why I like M and N in alphetbetical order. Not the chocolate. Haha! I represent N and my mum represt M, I love my mum so much so I always put her before me. M come first before N marhx. So this reason is acceptable and good! Yeah! LOL!

I watched porn at Primary 4! But I stop watching it from the beginning of Sec 4. So please don't temp me with it already. This kind of porn websites are harming people modesty. My advice is stop surfing porn website if you haven't do it. Those movies kind of nudity is alright as they show it with their own free will and is legal. Lastly it is not hardcore and some points of veiw it is artistic......

2007-02-25T09:10:00.000-08:00

Just reached home from praying Ti Gong. This year ceremony is faster than the past years. Haha! So I get home too early for sleeping and I decided to blog. My mum birthday is coming soon and I need help on getting a idea what to get for her. Can everyone who has an idea please tag me and enlighten me. Don't care about my budget 1st. Thanks in advance. XD

Yesterday, went to Weiliang and Julia house to visit. I bring my sister along and she acted as my girlfriend. It was so fun that I punked so many people. Wahahaha! But as I thought the spoiler will be Esther. Walau, I havent have enough fun. LOL! Finally, sad to say sorry Winnie you have a wasted trip. =D

I told Geraldine that in my blog alot of things is fake but infact it is the opposite. I told her that because I want to punked people. LOL! Lets be assure that everything in my blog is true, true to the bottom of my hearts. So if you all have visited my blog frequently, you will not get punked. Muhahahaha!

I got to worked hard already. From now on I will try my best to help myself in studies. I should do what I can do and not always trying to learn what I do not know. So I can finally master somethings that I suppose to master. Just like studies......

Give you all a quote today: The things you can get, even if it is a treasure it will become a worthless object, even when times of needs. But if you cant get it you will treat it as treasure and see it better than your own life. Hence, it is better to learn how to make one then put own your hands and ask for it. By my mum......

I have crush on a total of three girls and admire 2......

2007-02-22T06:09:00.000-08:00

Today time passes quickly as usual. I am seriously unhappy with my chinese result as well as english. I know I can do well but how could this happen? I failed my English and having a borderline mark for my chinese. I suppose to work hard. Zzzz...... Yeow Wei ar Yeow Wei, faster wake up! Hope the new seating arrangement will change my feng shui. My new place is at the front door, it is at the north side of the class. Didnt know my classroom feng shui same as my godfather house feng shui. Lol!

Two days ago, I got to play a drumset. It is easy to play but i never play it that much as it is at a HDB flat. If play too loud I scared people would complain. Now my knowledge about drum getting higher. =D

I found out that I can be really emmotional at times.

I once steal $50 to buy cards and almost steal $14 for my brother. But now I will never steal again! Taking things that doesn't belong to you will have karma and it will make us pay for what we have done!

2007-02-21T06:54:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS A UNLUCKY DAY FOR ME! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!!

Firstly, during P.E. I was wack for no reason, I didnt defend Wei Hao in basketball still tio hit. Zzzz. Lol! Then during English lesson, Li Si Yun seat and mine got swop due to her big mouth and Mastura Sabo. ROAR!!! With this still not really demoralise, but WTH. While we four was walking home, a bird shit drop on my hands. EEEEEEEEEK!!! Damn... Why am I so unlucky today?

I never mastu***** before. So never mention that all guys do it. (",)

2007-02-19T09:11:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday

Daren Chan Keng Loo!!!

Wow, it have been so long I read someone blog with such enthuaism. I think good english really turn people on. This make me even more upset, because I found out english is not even close to standard! Sob......

Today, I was reading my past sms from friends. There is one particular sms clear my few months old doubt, with the help of a memory of a conversation with him.(",) So to say, having a record of sms is good. Sometimes it helps to clear doubt, but not just keep record of sms, also keep others as well. Haha!a

After much thinking process of a phrase, I finally come to a conclusion. The phrase True to Music (By Kian Yong Interpretation ), is just an excuse to me. It is a good excuse though, SERIOUSLY!!! By what Kian Yong had told me," all those people who is true to music only stick mainly to one genre"(written in my own words). He got his points, now is time to hear mine. It is an excuse because, it is really hard to learn all genre in music. Being good at singing is not an easy task not to say learning all genres. For some people, they can't even master one genre. Lol! So it is not surprising people come out with this excuse and I seriously it is a very good excuse to use. Lol! I AM JUST BEING TRUE TO MUSIC!!! LOL! Sorry but I going all round in music, so to say I am going to master all genres in music. All the best for me =D

I once almost commited shoplifting, but I felt guilty so I walk back to the supermarket and put all the thing I steal back to its original place. If that day I really steal it, I think today I will choose the other path of the route......

2007-02-18T00:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW

YEAR EVERYBODY!!!

I have just came back home from visiting Relative and I got 10 red packets only. LOL! But I think sincerity counts it doesn't matter how many red packet, how much money is inside. I finally get to wear my new clothes and I think is very cool. Haha! Remember everyone to mantain your shape, don't eat too much because the food is fattening! Wahaha!

I NEVER EVEN HAD 1 GIRLFRIEND BEFORE! ARGGG!!! So when I sing, don't blame me if those sweet feelings of love is not there. XD

2007-02-16T23:50:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year Eve!

Watch a show at midnight yesterday, it was a very touching show. It a Korean drama that show a girl with Azmiel disease( I don't know the spelling ), is a disease that will make you senile at a very young age. The show is about her life and how she met this guy. Actually I thought is only a love story but after she change a guy and get married, then she found out she got the disease. After she knew that, she want to get away from this guy so he can find other relationship but the guy cant bear that and she went to search for her......

I want to sing! I want to go KTV!!! New year liao, so ang pao here I come!!! Wahaha! I got the horny bear dp in msn. Muhahahaha! XD Don't know what to post liao so post till here. Must get going already!

Chances never appeared everytime, so when it appear remember to grab and make use of it! Miracle do happen, it also can be created, is whether you rather wait for it to happen or create it yourself......

2007-02-16T00:24:00.000-08:00

Just came back home from a watching Epic Movie. I don't it is worth my $7.50, because the show end at an hour! It is quite funny but mostly lame, shouldn't have watched. Zzz......

There is alot of memories I have and I really treasure them, it reflect on my past mistakes and remind me of my honour moments. It is great sometimes to think back on them, but I heard that the feelings will not be there if it happen again, so we must really tresure that kind of feelings.

I am falling apart help me! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!! My hearts has filled up by you and it going to explode soon. When will I be able to pluck up my courage to show my affection? When will I be with you? When......? During Valentine's Day, I saw so many couples around and I am very envy. As usual I spent my Valentine's Day alone thinking of you again. I am a useless freak, I can give advice and strategy to people like I am a real professional, but when it happen to me, I don't know what to do. Its been long since I post something about love because I thought I can handle my feelings. Which I seriously can't!

Hope that the dirty little secret corner that is coming up on my blog can release quite alot of my burden. I going to trust everyone that visit my blog and in this way no one will be able to betray me again. Although I will not post big secret, so people who knows please don't spread if I want to tell I will post in my blog. Thanks alot =D

The course of true love never did run smooth......

2007-02-15T01:42:00.000-08:00

There are a lot of things in my mind and now, I can't concentrate in O'level even more. Don't understand myself! Haha! Whats wrong with me? I mean it is just an O'level no need to stress myself that hard. Damn! I am going to stop dota for good already, hope I don't play it again.

Today Physic, I got 25/30! My endorphin is gushing out insanely when Mr Yu mark my paper. And it was the first paper somemore. 25/30 is a very good mark but I can get better thanks to the careless mistake. Zzzz... Chemistry, I think I had screwed it, because my mcq answer quite different from Melvan and Daren. Aiya! We three mcq very different. So I very scared, is either one of us get a high mark or none of us get it. You see, Daren and Melvan is good in science so, now I am very worried. Not that I don't have confidence, but is I can't concentrate, because something is buggying me hard.

Yesterday, I suppose to go to KTV with brotherhoods but I cant go, due to my godfather disallowed. Sorry everyone in Brotherhood. Two days ago, I heard from my another buddy from Primary school that he is in Xin Min ITE. Hope he is doing well there and lets be ursure I wont look down on you. You are my friend remember? Yeah! If got chance must ask me teach me how to play drum or jamming. LOL! I want to learn heavy metal also!!! =D

I am trying to go all aspect in music industry. Currently I am learning Rock and R&B, next I think it will be Rythymic and Jazz song? Lastly I think it will be Heavy Metal!!! Wahaha! I am very happy that Jr want to teach me break dance!!! XD I am serious I want to learn!!! Hehe!

Note: I going to change the motivational quote to my dirty little secret corner, it will commence at New Year! Each new posting will have one secret of mine. LOL!

In a fight, the winner is not determine by how heavy your blows are but it determine how many blow you can withstand. In studies it is also the same, the marks you get does not always mean you study more you can get higher marks, but it is how you write it out in the examination.

2007-02-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

Finally, I went to bugis and brought my clothing. Haha! This year I spent around $400 just for clothes already. Lol! But I still not sastisfied will the amounts of clothes I brought, so I am going to buy more. Wahahaha!!! At bugis the jams there was really insane, you can stuck in the middle of a long stretch of road. The road was the place that seperate Bugis Junction and Bugis Street. My godfather was trap there for 5 minutes, whereas, I use strategy to cross rather than use the typical way of crossing that kind of road. XD
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During this time, I finally enlighten by the phrase,"so many things, so little time." I got so many things to do, yet I have not enough time to finish all of them. Wish I still can take it, hope I still can go on. I think I should be able to manage it, due to the strength my "Angel" give me. I am going to make this song 'Angel' 1 of my best song. With preserverance I know I can do it. Hope that nothing will bound me from reaching that level. And as for what will my style of singing that will depends, will it be a sad one? or a Happy one? or maybe other emmotion?
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Will i be able to excel the invisible force that stop me to getting over?

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With power, it came great responsibility or will it turn to disaster? (An add on from me. XD)

2007-02-09T09:57:00.000-08:00

Congratulation for people taking O'level result.

Today was really happy to hear my buddy cum partner has produce a great result in O'level. He finally can pursuit his goals to be able to go to the aerospace couse in poly. At the same time I feel sorry for people that did not do as well.

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Here is an advice for people in my class for getting B3 rather than A1 or A2. B3 is a very good grade already, some people can't even achieve that in their subject. Retaking the exam is just a waste of time and grades. Why retake when you can use the time to study for others subject and improve them rather to give up more time because of one big tree? When you improve others subject your grades will be better than your grades for improving at that particular subject which can only improve your grades by 2 point at max. ( No need to take in my advice, just believe and follow your heart )

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When to have a talk with teck choon at the last part of the day, the talk let me remember somethings. A cause will have an effect, so an effect is due to the cause. If you do something must think carefully what is the result of your cause? To revert the effect 1st we must find the cause or else things will be harder to solve. And also remember that serious is not born in first.

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I must do it, I really must. Even if I am in dilemma and doubt. I will never know the result if I never try once. I really do hope history will not repeat and all things go smoothly.

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Sorry make an error in the previous post, spot it yourself. Finally my days has come by during the 1504 days...... I will make a new start or ending in my story???

2007-02-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

Today I finished my oral c, but I am sick yesterday, so I don't get much infomation and all the things I present was the thing I just think of. Lol! How pro can I be? That Suicide!!! Luckily Miss Shamila never penalise me for the last 20second where I never finish my speech. Haha! I felt that at the starting part I did quite good. XD
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Sometimes I do not know why but I got this strong urge to cry. Because of the promise I made to myself at Secondary 2-3 I must not cry ever again, I had to hold back even I was hurt badly. I once told myself I must be strong, there is no one that can depend forever. Depending on people is not always as effective as depending on myself. Although I still keep depending on my friend sometimes, but I always had a back up plan and I am a person that is very compose until things get to a serious stage. I don't know why the hell I post this. Maybe because the stress is really coming to me? My headache which I suspect is cause by stressness, when will it be gone?
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If I never count wrongly this is the 1861 days le...... There is still nothing from me...... Continue believing may things turn to suit us? I shall follow my heart and see it happen.......

2007-02-05T00:50:00.000-08:00

I am sick for the whole week. Zzz... But the pain inside me does not subside and eventually getting worst. Maybe it is due to too much exhaustion? Cause I had slept all the way this two days. I am like hibernating. Lol!
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Recently I think I cant get off the urge to play basketball. I want the feeling in the basketball court. After stop playing basketball for quite sometime, suddenly the urge to play come back. Lol! People dont hesitate to call me play basketball but dont ask me to play in a time like 7am. Because I wont be able to wake up. Haha. I will be the star playmaker. XD
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Happy Birthday Li Jin

Two days ago is Li Jin birthday. Went to her house to celebrate, it was quite a fun day actually but T5 + Mr Ong Ah Hock Danny go latest. =X That day my luck in gambling is insane, I won all the game except for the last one. But too bad never play money.Haha! Or else I will become a rich ass. Wahaha!

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No need to show your best to others always, show it when really in need. Be compose!

2007-01-29T00:34:00.000-08:00

Why I had this doubt in life that I cannot lift? Why I had to constantly appeared as other self that is really no me? Why I always do things in a much lousier manner when I know I can do alot more better? Why I am so lazy even for my passion?Is it only through singing, then I can find my own trueself?
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As you all noticed that I stop blogging about love, maybe because I feel that I can't find my true love or is it it just not the right moment? I really need to be in that relationship even though it is only once and I would die with no regrets. Even if it is only a day spouse, I wouldn't mind as long there is this undying love living on. With this I could also greatly enhance my singing skill. My feelings rate will be better. For my future and for myself, hope true love will befall!
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Yeah! Jowell, Eunice and e.t.c...... I really missed all of you, hope we do meet up often. =)
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I believe that determination can move god and I had witness that. If you people do not believe you can do a test and observe. You will be amazed. =D

2007-01-27T02:52:00.000-08:00

Sian! Most of the blog I frequently go did not update. Lol! Today I decided to post again and not many people realised that I am BACK!!! Wahahaha! I feel marvelous to be able to blog again, this feeling that I had lost during December 3 was finally return. Haha! Now my blog is lack of visitor but I am fine with that. Next time if you all visit my blog remember to leave a tag, it will be appreciated.XD
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23 January 2007 was a unforgettable day for me. I sang a verse of song infront of whole class! I am sorry for not performing the whole song. I had my reason so forgive me. I hold back because I think my skill still havent reach the star level. I had told Choon the other day that I am still stuck on a level that can pass audition but still not the standard to be a star. Until then, I shall perform my best to you all and this time will be a whole. =)
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Now, I am still as lazy as ever. If this continued, I can forget about 6 A1 and I can forget about going to my desired course. I must wake up soon, I don't want to make history repeat itself again. It cause me 1 year of my life and I already live with regret. This time I really must give it my best shot no matter what. Hope everyone would give me their help and support. =D

2007-01-25T01:11:00.000-08:00

This year I also come up with new resolution but too lazy to post it here. Now I shall post some of my new year resolution. Haha!

I want to train my vocal till it is almost perfect.
I want my pimple to go away.
6 A1 for my O'level.
Work for money to invest my mum shop.
Be rich at 30 years old.
Find my first and only true love.
Get over what i cant get over with.
Become more hard working and not so lazy.
Fulfill my dreams.
World Peace.
Be healthy.
All the best for friends around me.
More new clothing.

This should be all for now. Haha! It had been long since I saw some of my friends, I really miss you guys. I hope to see you all real soon.XD

2007-01-23T02:45:00.000-08:00

Welcome back to my blog! It will be better than before as my english should have been improve. Haha! I will try to add new things in for more excitement but that is not gurantee as I still not sure whether to blog constantly or not. I never blog due to a weird habbit of mine, when i blog I will tend to go to all the other people blog where I normally would go visit. Hence, this makes me very boring and you all know I am very lazy. So you all know what happen next...... Haha!
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There is alot to blog so due to time constraint I will blog other day or later if I had the time. Alekatok for coming and have a look.....XD

2006-12-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

Woot! I taunt for 2 days with only 3 hrs of sleep. Zzzz! Today my godfather birthday, so went to eat breakfast with him and go to MacRichie Reservoir for a walk. Boring, so tired still walk. But the air is really fresh early in the morning. Personally I quite enjoy the feel there in the morning, cause I never sweat even abit.
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Happy Birthday Godfather

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As promised, if I really complete the task of achieving Level 50 at maple, that will be half of a success in my life. Why? It is because maple is one of the top game I hated to play most. If I managed to play it well, that will be a great success in my preserverance and good hardwork. That is as simple as this.

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Tears almost flowed out when I sing Be Wo Shin Fu with passion and feeling. I really think of you when singing that......

2006-11-29T21:57:00.000-08:00

Just go to Jowell blog and saw he wrote something about bishan park. Yesterday talk to Esther she also mention someone working at Bishan Park. So I decided to post something about Bishan Park. Lol!
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When I was young, there could be said the place I grow up. Why? Cause every now and then my family will bring my brother, sister and I go there. We will cycle around and usually fish there. I still remember got Bishan Park 1 and 2. Lol! Once I even from Toa Payoh walk through there to Ang Mo Kio just to find my legged cramp till the whole day throughout. But we stop going there when they started renovating. After so long, I never been there since. I shall go back there someday and refresh my memories. Haha!
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Yesterday, went to eat Sakae Sushi with Fei Lun Hai. The next time I will be going there is 1 year later. We cant finish the food there. Zzzz...... Even there is Keith and me still not enough. My stomach yesterday abit full so cant eat much and usually at night my stomach will become extra big. So what we do to the extra food? Some we wrap with tissue paper and throw in rubbish bin. Lol! Other hide in miso soup container. Wahaha!
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"To be or not to be, --that is the question:--Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to sufferThe slings and arrows of outrageous fortuneOr to take arms against a sea of troubles,And by opposing end them?"

2006-11-27T18:54:00.001-08:00

It was a very nice day yesterday.

The weather was perfect and everything else.

My life......

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Yeah! It was a perfect day yesterday no doubt. The words on top is just a new style in starting a post. Quite cool eh? Perfect day? As in weather, and the joy out of me. Haha! My real perfect day has yet to come, must wait more longer haix. Perfect day = Wedding with my love. =D

Went to play lan with Keith and meet with Daren and Melvan in Battle.net. First two matches not really smooth as still not use to the delayed time in battle.net. I didnt believe one guy who told me that battle.net had much more delayed time than Zion. Truely it is, but it is forgivable as it is a worldwide gaming net and also had a terrific graphic.

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Finish playing, I went to meet Teckie because he called me and said he want to cut hair. I was quite stunned by his stun. Lol! Stun as in calling me and said he need a hair cut. His hair so short!!! My hair so long also never cut. His hair haix......LOL! But halfway true the road down to the saloon he change his mind. And that was the beginning of our party time HOORAY!!! PARA PARA PARADISE!!! Two monkey dancing in an arcarde which cost 50cents per game, cheap like hell. Wahkekeke... Teckie said I dance like a funky rockstar. Lol! But my fist, Argggg! PAIN, knock until the machine. Zzz...... Went to talk after that. XD

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My laptop is going to be like the laptop I use to have before reformating. Except it is more fastr and more efficient. But before it become really look alike, I still must finish downloading Ragnarok. Zzz......

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Remember the days you use to say you going to marry? Remember the days we were naming our guild? Remember the days you first train me at clock tower fighting Bathory with a tattoo rabbit at its ass? Remember the days we MS Party together? Remeber the days you quarrel with Stinky Pants? Remember the days we quit Fallen Angel? Remember all the outing we go with Dexter and other guild member? Remember the days we fight Fallen Angel together in WoE? Remember we trash Risen Devils together? Remember we kill our first non-Hocus Pocus Dark Lord together? Remember we dicuss strategy and try to make guild event together? And finally we bring Kai Jie in and we QUIT! LOL! Still got alot more things happening but I won't continue. Haha! =)

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You forgot to put this in your post. Do not copy and paste. Write your own one. Wahaha! Copyrighted by Neo Yeow Wei

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Shakespeare says: "All the world's a stage,And all the men and women merely players.They have their exits and their entrances,And one man in his time plays many parts,His acts being seven ages."

2006-11-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

Went to Zoo yesterday with Fei Lun Hai. Lol! Stunned barhx? Thanks to Keith and his idea =.=... Didn't know going zoo can be such a tiring outing. Walk until super duper tired. Never mind got to see alot of cute animals we usually won't get to see. At the last part of the outing we ate KFC, all of them order except me. Lol! And something weird happen, Keith order something he will never ever order. Everything never upsize!!! + he never change coleslaw to cheeze fries. LOL!

Don't blame me if I never blog cause...... I already blog but in another blog. I call it the blog of heart. Yeah! Thats right is a blog in my heart. I blog in it whenever I feel like. It a blog that none can excess, even if you are the proest hacker ever lived. XD

2006-11-20T08:58:00.000-08:00

Back to post. Haha! I had not blog due to several reasons. First of cause I am lazy. Lol! Second busy watching a show. So on so forth...... This few weeks had past by horriblely fast, yet quite slow. I speak with high level of chimness so don't blame me. Haha! Just being influence by a show I just watch and making me interested in the quote made by Shakespeare. I am prepared for battle with O'level. Come baby come come you can be my?!?!?! Wait a minute......Whats with me? Lol! This is not important, the main point is why do I blog today and whats in my blog?
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Today, went to Vivo City. Surprise, surprise and still surprise. Why? It resemble so much like me and Choon "home", Marina Square! But a bigger version. And one more thing different is you will not get lost, as it is just a big oval. So no matter how you walk you will still be back. Lol! First stop, Best!!! Down there we take our first picture, wow I am quite cool too. XD Then proceed to walk around, then we miraclously walk into my personal favourite place. Toysauras! Wahaha! It was big, big and big. Lol! I like the animal valley the most because there is one very very big dog for $100. Lol! And then, I saw a set of gundam strike set for $140. As big as the gundam Wings and Strike Freedom I think? Haha! Of cause all my favourite gundam all got and also those I mention in previous sentence. There is also a super big model of a Strike Freedom which is taller than me by abit. WAaAAAA!!! Beautiful is the word to describe. Next we continue our routine of walking, take some pictures outdoor. At last, we proceed to eat at the third floor oldies alley of food court(This, I name myself XD). The food there is nice + me and Mel agitated Keith and Daren by buying Dou Jiang You Tiao. Wahaha! Delicious...!>!>!>!> Yummy Yum Yum!!! Take more pics after too. Tomorrow I will put some up so don't worry... HahaZ!
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Two days ago, I found out that my skill of eating spices had deteroide again. Zzzz...... We went to Macperson Hawker Centre for dinner, which is also my second round of dinner. I recomended all the other Fei Lun Hai the Ma La Ban Mian. We all buy except Daren... Zzz... Ps...!?!?! Waa! This is the 1st time I had such a hard time finishing it. Zzzz... But never mind I still like the sensation. Yum Yum....... Finished that time we went back home and my mum asked me to accompany her out. And I had my third round of dinner at a Honk Kong Restuarant at Cineleisure. The food there is delicious and some more infornt of me was one great beauty. Everything about her was perfect, her eating posture, her siting posture, her figure, her looks, most importantly her eyes. But most pitiful and horrible thing is she has a boyfriend. Lol! Its okayZ because I have someone to think of already so I had no feel. But speech say back again...? Ermm...I really hope that she look to my place so that I can transfer my electron to her and memerize her. But she kept looking at her bf and playing Ni Pai Wo Wo Pai Ni game. meaning I use camera take photo of you, you take photo of me. Lol! Wahaha...!
I had unexplainable bonding with my heart....
"Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow." adopted by the quote of Shakespeare......

2006-11-11T06:19:00.000-08:00

Wow! Today ate stingray. Super nice! Lol! So long never been to Adam road to eat stingray kind of miss it. I had not been there around 1-2 month already. Keith and I order roti-john and Daren and I order sotong. Wahaha! Nice, but I think I am not full enough. I did not eat till my heart content. Sob...... Guess what? I had already gained 4 kilos during the holiday. Lol! But I dont think I am fat enough. I want my weight to be 65 kilograms. Hehe!

Happy Birthday Esther!

Enjoy the last hour of your Birthday.

Wahahaha!

Went to shop at Novena Square for your present and Keith had his revenge on me. Zzz... When we eat that time I bring them down on a stop behind the supposedly to stop stop and Keith did the same. Poor Melvan and Daren. Lol! Whole lots of laughing when we reached United Square. Lol! So funny, as usual the joker king Keith. Lol! Playing with his lion. Wahaha! And all sort of funny funny stuff. Lol!

Trust your heart, trust your confidence......

2006-11-06T05:39:00.000-08:00

Today was hell lots of maddness. Lol! First, a television programme spree in Keith house. Zzz... When I reached, all of them are insulting all the people appeared in Channel News Asia. Lol! Then next is crime watch. Then Bob the builder with Robert the builder. Wahaha!!! + also Oh Carol!!! Zzzz... Yu Le Bai Fen Bai is next, wooohoo. SONG! Is Liang Jing Ru Ge Chang Bi Shai. After that we go long house eat. We all super miserable, all call chicken rice with set and add rice. Keith got the pics lol! Moment we eat finished we went to Shop n Safe to buy drinks, and of cause chiong home for goong. Hehe! We were just in time. Goong finish we watch you think you can dance. Zzz... Really TV spree, so half way through that show we decided to go home.

Going home also got another problem, Melvan easylink no cash. So I accompany to walk home. although it took 20+min but it seem short cause we happily chatting away. Haha! When reached, my bus arrived just in time. ArhahahX! So thats it for today.

No quote for today!!! Wahaha! Lazy to com out with one. Although I got alot more.

2006-11-05T07:18:00.000-08:00

Wow...! Everyday had strange dream. Lol! In my dream there will always have one person and that is me. Lol! In my dream I will always be so handsome and so charming. I wish I got three-quarter of his look and I will be really mirthful. ArhahaX! And in my dream there will always be you whom always look so beautiful, your eyes always captivated my hearts glittering into my eyes like the sun. I wish my future girlfriend or wife will look just like you in my dream. Erm...I mean my second weird dream. Kidding! Lol! You will do just fine. Haha! Another weird thing in my dream is there will always have the Fei Lun Hai and the Bandongs. Weird eh? arhahaX! I really do like my second weird dream. All of us had grown up in that dream. Cool eh?

I suddenly, dont know how to blog. I just got this feeling, SianZ when I do a new post. What happen to me? I use to be very enthu in blogging. I used to do very emo blogging. Now I lost the energy to do so. I will recover I hope, from this self created mind pressure in short the (scmp).

Music life had going in and out of my life again and again. It is just an everyday cycle. Just by thinking how much I must save I go Zzz... I will stick to guitar first I think. Hope my guitar have not spoil. But I really hope somehow or rather I will get a drum set soon.

I really do have a strong heart. We people need to have strong heart to overcome alot of obstacle. We cant stay in one spot forever can we? We born to move on, thinking of going back to the past will kill our heart. It is impossible just like bringing back a dead life.

If only it was so easy.

2006-10-30T20:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LIANG!

Just woke up from a strange dream. haha!

I the dream, I dreamt that I am going to marry someone.

Waa...! I thought real one before I woke up. Zzz...

I no need to say who is this girl right? haha! Supposedly all should guess by now.

She is the girl I always mention in my blog.lol!

I think she agreed to the marriged.

Cause during the planning of the wedding ceremony at my uncle and aunt house, most of my friend appeared.

But I can't get one thing, why she never appeared. Zzz...

When discussing, I had a sudden quarrel with my past favourite uncle and aunt.

I quarrel to protect my that aunt. Haixsh...Hao Xin Mei Hao Bao. lol!

Lucky it is jus a dream.

Then suddenly, my house the fish tank appeared there. And it seem to Lou Shui.

Then Daren help to put water in it, no use cause the water will drip out again.

After that, I woke up.

ArhahhahahahahX...! Weird dream eh?

2006-10-28T08:44:00.000-07:00

Just came back watching sinking of Japan. A show that Japan made to screw themself. Lol!

But I like its ending, because gt my favourite the sunrise. Lol!

Guess what? Yesterday, I did not sleep.

This was the 1st time since holiday I never sleep at home.

Was feeling abit down, because two of my good friends just break with their ex and also other matters.

And both did not last long. I shall not name who is that. Hearing this make me feel insecure about love.

But of cause I will always believe in true love. I believe in fairy tales relationship, I shall find 1 who is worthy and she will be the last. I hope it will come true.

I seriously in need of a strong hearts. Too many emmotion in my hearts.

And I don't know how to express it although I have alot of good friends to talk to.

Worst part is my strong heart is stolen by her. So I really in need of the recipocrate attitude, or someone just give me your heart, lend me your strength. Lol!

Sound fantasy. Haha!

Today went to play basketball. Somewhat disappointed yet somewhat impressed.

Do you believe that someone late for 2hours +. Zzz...

Lucky I promised myself to say less vulgar. lol!

I am impress with Esther. Cause she continue believe in them and defend them till the moment she left.

Good job Esther, so loyal. Lol!

Maybe you can change position with your Bobby. Kidding. lol!

Impressed really impressed.

Hey I first time praise you must appreciate and treasure it okay. haha!
Sadnest in my heart is trying to break free. I must be strong!
What is anger? What is love?
Is it an illusion or is it real?
Come with happiness go with saddness.
Really is it's definition?

2006-10-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

I am going to change my url tomorrow. See my msn personal message to get the url. I just recieved my birthday pictures. You can get a look on them below. That day was fun but they say one years ago is better. I had no comment as one years ago I left early. Zzz... We played the drum game. Wow! I am super lousy. Mr LIAO WHERE ARE YOU? I seriously need you. Train me better than MEI SEN!!! ROAR!!! Lol! Eugene, Esther and Mei Sen never eat the steamboat. They say they don't feel like eating. Eugene eat already right? But thanks Eugene for you picture I really appreciate you are there. Thanks people I really have fun although my present is just a little. But a little is enough as a little yet alot. This little means alot to me, what I counts is sincerity not the amount spent.

My birthday had already past but what I promised myself haven't been fulfilled. Zzz...... I shall get it done SOON!!! I must become better. A greater Yeow Wei! I must start to learn how to appreciate and stop being such an easily influence child I use to be. I will start to say less vulgar. Not even when playing game le. Wish me luck to fulfill my duty everyone. Give me strength for you all will be my pillar of strength. Support me for whom I believe.
Why must it be this way? It loosen my strength
We must be ready anytime anywhere. For who will know when their chance cam by?

2006-10-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

Reds vs Blacks... Look at Keith he is eager to CRUSH them!!!

Waa! How can you all cry on my birthday? Aww...! Don't cry......=.='''

Three Man Show!!! Hey where is the SuN? I don't want moonlight!!!

What are they doing?

Hey! DUN BULLY MY KEITH!!! U two frighten him till he is STONE!!!

We are ready to pose when you are...Wahahaha!

Dan Fei Zhui Hong...eveready to pose in from of a camera.

Look what the haze has done to me!

This is my 1st time taking picture alone with her. LOL! The both Shou Xin. Holy...I um chio!

2006-10-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

I finally found out why I love you so much. This is what I have been wondering since the 1st day I had a crush on you. It's because you are you and no matter what you do is always been so natural. Love is really not just looks. If the person I like now suddenly change soul, will i still like the person with the other soul?( Senario by Choon ) I don't think I will. I love the her and her only. I only got one heart and it is stolen how to I love the one inside her body? I can't cause my heart is already stolen, it is gone. When I found out how come I like this girl so much, my love get stronger and feel more secure. I didn't disclosed whom I love to much people, although one must be true to love. I think because I am afraid. Am I? I am confuse now, cause I really think alot recently.

Last time I never found out about this because I had this mindset that you wont know where you like about the girl, then this is call love. But seriously speaking is this really the definition of love? I don't think so. Why? It is because how you will live with that person when you two get marriaged? You don't even know where you like about her. This kind of relationship will tend to fall easily. This kind of love is never everlasting! I don't want this kind of relationship, I want true love which is everlasting. This is the biggest reason why I still havent found a stead. I don't believe I can't find one outside. I am not saying I very handsome or whatsoever. I am speaking the truth. I believe most people agree too, isnt it?

An example of me thinking alot=> Am I a easily influence person? I remember I almost convert once to christianity. I really thought that it a right path for me. As what they say seem so true and so comfortable. Yet, I found out that not all they say are true, even it is comfortable and nice to listen. It is just an appeasment and some time propaganda. This is a reason why I havent convert till now even though I went to so many church. This is one of the answer to those who ask me why. Lets stop on this topic le. As I think too racist.

What the use of being jealous? What you should do is to be better so don't waste time being jealous =. =D

2006-10-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

New Blog, new begining. Yeah! From now on i am going to put down the past and sprint towards the future. So long never blog because I am very lazy and I am going to kick away my laziness. My birthday had just past two days ago, so I had grown up 1 years old. I am not small already, I am 16, I am a man now! From today on I must be more matured.

Happy belated Birthday to = Sree, Shamala, Kok Yong, Clair, Yee Wen, Joe, Bro, Mei Sen and Myself too! =D

My Birthday wishes

I hope there will be peace, no disaster. Everyone can find their true love. Be happy always. Be trueful to oneself and thyself. my godfather will become better and I gained my own freedom. Everyone stay healthy always.

My Special thanks to(not in any particular order)

Jowell, Eunice, Kai Jie, Teck Choon, Aiya Brotherhood =D, My sis and Bro, Joe,Melvan, Daren, Esther, Li Shiyun, Eugene, Wei Leong, Wei Liang, My Mum, Hu Li Shen Zhang, My Godfather, Uncle Stieffe, Mr Sim Lee Yong, Hui Yong, Keith and the 1st two who wish me Happy Birthday

On 2nd place: Mei Sen

On 1st place: Gladys

( I forget the 3rd lol! Sorry )

Since I created a new blog and I had just past my birthday, I shall make a new introduction of myself.

My favourite drinks:

Pokka Green Tea, Tea of any kind too, Coke, 100+, Ice Cool

My favourite food:

Pizza, Mcdonald, Chicken Rice, Lor Mee, Ba Chor Mee, Ramen, Ban Mian, Mushroom Soup, Most of Soup I like also, Whip Potato, Zhu Chao, e.t.c ( really too many )

My Favourite Singer/Band Top 10

Wang Lee Hom, Lin Jun Jie, Zhou Jie Lun, Andy Lau, Sun Yan Zhi, Guang Liang, 5566, S.H.E, Jin Sha, Twins

This should be it, I'll skip my characteristic as it will be too bhb I think. Lol! Okay, let start about what I have learn.

I finally accepted that people do chnage not just mindset will but character will too. But nevertheless I still believe that people cant change their main character. A person will change as the environment change and other factors too. I had witness alot of changes to human hearts. I had seen people became good and became bad again and return to the good side again. I also seen people fallen to the darkness and never return again. And also more too. I had a great friend just turn heel , but I am sure he will return. Why he turn bad? Maybe because of that incident? I dont know?

In the past I always do charity without hestitation. But during the past 2 year or maybe 1 and the half years I had not do that much. Reason? I shall not disclosed. Even if I did, I did with hestitation. But now, I will do more and be like the past. =D No matter wether it is a con or what, if I had the ability, I will.

Now, I will write about some friends and to no offense or against anyone:

Eun

I know that you had been deeply hurt. I also know that no matter how you try, you cant seem to control your emmo. If it is just recently that you had been hurt, I can understand how you feel. But it had been a long time since, please get over it. I had also been hurt deeply too before. Although our case are different but I know how you feel. People always use, you will not know how I feel. But that is an excuse to escape. How do I get over my saddness, my emmotion? I can get over because when I think that I had a bad life or I am suffering, I saw people are suffering far more than me, leading a worst life than me and some live life with humilation. So to them I am a lucky person when I think I am the most unluckiest person in the world. Hope one day I will see your smile more beautifully. =)

Choon

I have witness the change in you. You have really change alot, alot more than what you think. I had start to think the person I went with talk about my feeling and stuff like that is the other person. I agree with you that you want a person to change back to his past is impossible. So I wish you will change to a more better person than your past and far more than now. I really do miss the young, innocent and naive Choon I know. But the Choon now is no longer innocent and young. I had come to a point that I almost don't know you. But luckily I am a fast adapter. lol! I think you have change because of that incident( the recent one). The old incident make you a better person. The new one change you to a worst. But it is still early, so to reverse it , is still possible. And really do see things in other angle and see things outside its angle. Takecare. =D

Keith

Finally you had become a happier person this year. And I definitely believe you will passed your N'level. Even if no one believe in you or you don't believe in yourself, remember you still have me. Choon once said that you are intelligent but only you never make good use only. I totally agree with him. You have the ability to think what normally people cant. Make good use of that talent. You have potential in other things too, only you havent discover it yet. Don't be dishearten. And I am terrible sorry about teaching you bad stuff in Secondary 1 and 2. You are a great friend to have. =[] Be a good boy. Lol! Kidding!

Hong Hui

Nice hair. So listen to me and you shall not regret. Lol! Kidding! Never wished me happy birthday! Never mind forgive and forget. Good eh? Now this kind of guy where find? lol! jkjk! Sound familiar? haha! Yup! Copyrighted from you de. Haha! Stay happy and remember to see things in a wider angle and the angle outside. If you cant I also cannot teach you must ask Keith le. Haha! He is a pro in it. ",

Mei Sen

Waa...! You very good... Every year I give you present you never give me. Sob... Kidding! Don't get the wrong idea why I give you present. Because is fun to give present to the same birthday people. That what I and Joe did every year. You are very honour to recieve my present. Haha! More honour to recieve a present this year because it is not soft toy which I give to most people. LOL! XD And Thanks for borning later than me so I am the oldest among we three. Muhahahaha! Call me Big Bro. hehe! Kidding!

OkayZ another Special thanks

Thanks for the I pod from mum sorry for wasting so much money. Chocolate looking bear bear from us? I know one of them is daren. The book from Eugene i will finish reading it de although all the words look chim. The small phone accessory from Keith, very Kawaii.My sis cookies although I forget to bring home and eat but I eat some very nice, and also I am touch because in the past you don't know how to cook and I always cook for you, you grow fast.

Last but not least, thanks Melvan, Keith, Daren, Eugene, Gladys, Weileong, Esther, Mei Sen, Li Si Yun for being present on Friday. I had a great time...

Small little things you do counts , it will stack and make a difference. Even if it is small..!

2006-09-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! I am back from drought in my blog. Lol! I just learn some beat box from JR. Thanks JR for giving tips and teaching some technique of beat box. XD Also thanks for teaching my 'disciple', erm abit no face but at least they are improving. Lol! Practice more 'disciple'. Haha! I sound old. Zzz

N`level is coming soon but don't know why I am not anxious or feel afraid. Weird huh? However, I am more worry about something more. Zzz...... How? Follow my hearts I shall! thanks Choon and Keith too.

Good Luck for the coming N level Exam everyone !!!

Don't stay in dilema for too long......

2006-09-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

Weeehooo~! Yo..! Just learn this form Choonie. Lol! After nice long break finally back here. XD
Thanks keith for coming here to see for fun in d n t lesson. Keith is a bad bad boy, but I like it! Because we are Shuang Fei! Yeah! Just back not long after playing badminton with Jowell, Eunice they all. Never play much though, play just okay okay only. XD...! Abit Singapore slang, sorry for that. Kekekeke...!

Then, recently go Wei Leong house for his birthday party. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! His new nick Vincent. Wahahaha! Its a inside joke so some of you will not understand. Only those who play Final Fantasy VII then will know and also must be with Keith when he said this joke. Arhahahx...! Bello is cute but smelly. What a waste! This show god is fair, but too fair sometimes. I SAW BELLO URINE ON ITSELF!!! EEEK~!!!

Write till here......

Be humble, surprise people when they are most vunerable......

2006-09-03T22:47:00.000-07:00

Yo...!Finally I am back for more posting.=D

Yesterday, went to watch Superstar with a friend who participated in it. I gain a few more friends. lol! 2 of them is his friend, so considered as second degree friend. Then I know two more friends whom had also participated in that competition. They are friendly and also sing quite well too. Don't be discouraged people who never got through the prelimary round. It is because you are not weak but there are people out there who are better, train harder and you shall succeed next round!

I was stun by yesterday performance by the participants. Alot of potential singers, although not much went through the audition. I heard two guy who sing equally good, but they are really too good to describe. Their Su Qing Ge really super Su Qing hear le very comfortable. Their voice when sing like got background music. Another one sing forever love can hit all the high notes and he can even sing a part which need Jia Ying to sing without Jia Ying. I was really amazed yesterday and I feel relieved I never join. LoL!

Be prepared when chances came by......

2006-08-26T21:47:00.000-07:00

Finally, I have posted something after a long while eh! I have something I ought to do =D. I am a person that would not usually do anything seriously, because of my talent in fast learning. But when I decide to do something seriously, I would put on hardwork in it. Usually this would not last long also. I had decided to change this away.

Do anyone know why I can learn things so fast? It is due to my mindset. I am a person that no matter how times I was beaten down, I would give it my all till the last second of my life. I die die also must learn what I want to learn. I got this thinking when I was Pri 3. After I learn that I could defeat an opponent who is so much stronger. I does not mean fighting. LOL!

I may not be online for the whole of next week. I am sorry for any inconvenient cause. As I had decided to do something seriously. Although It might be a little late, but it is never too late.

Although it is painful to know that the one you love deeply doesn't love you, it is not as painful as two person who are deeply in love which each other but they could not love. It causes this phrase So Near Yet So Far......

2006-08-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

Prelim finally over! I did feel abit relexed but on the otherhand more tense. I am afraid of bad result. I hope it will turn up optimistic.

I feel that I need some changes in my character. I don't why? Just suddenly feel this way. No matter what I wil just go with the flow. I will not delibrately change myself. And I will not definitely change for anyone. For who I lived to be myself not other who one I as Thyself!
I wish I did make the right choice......
Hardwork can definitely defeat talent! Talent without affinity, without hardwork = Nothing......

2006-08-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday Teck Choon!

I learnt one more thing on Choon bdae! I learnt how to rollerblade when I try it today the 1st time. Thanks Eunice, Buddiman for teaching me how to blade! Thanks Eunice again, Melven, my sister Winnie and Hong Hui (although HH ps me for pris) to accompany me when I skate. Because first time, sure very noobie.

Sorry people who feel left out. Actually you all are not odd one out. No one is! The group is really big today. After you all left there is still another group came. Lol! Choon very honour today. Haha!

The steamboat is really nice! Even my sister agreed. We have so much laughter even though choon ps us to sit with girls! Zhong She Qin You! Nvr mind we four sit together is enough! Got so 3 joker. LOL! Throw all the unfinish foods into flower pots. Still can pour chilli somemore! LOL! then after we think we had enough, we do funny funny things like make the chicken soup into tomyam soup and FRIED TOUPOK! LOL!When we went home, we had karaoke session.Today overall was a fun day! Because can see my best friend in pri school n now too of cause!lol! He is still as joker as ever! Hooray for Kheng Cheng Four Heavenly King!!!

Failure sometimes is due to the lack of daring. Without a little courage, you might delayed the process of somethings you are doing. Although too much courage will do harm. Must be well balanced......

2006-08-12T10:22:00.000-07:00

LOL!Bui Tahan! Haha!

1st of all I am very sorry that message never pass fast enough.
2nd, If I can choose, I choose to accompany all =D
3rd, No chance introduce, cause.......shall not proceed on this. Again leave suspense.Lol!
4th, Is glass not grass.LOL!
Here to clarify, all both blog posting is to explain things not shooting each other.
Now, no need my introduction you all should know each other. Come lets shake hand and be friend. Lofl!
Erm...hello!lol!Kidding! You are not a nobody. Cause nobody is perfect! You cannot be more perfect than me, or I will get jealous.LOL!
Actually, I am not as responsible in my school homework.LOL! I wish I am responsible in everything.HAhA!
Last but not least, everything will be the same, as I treat friendship seriously! Everyone to me is equally important, I can't survive without anyone of you. Life would be very different!

2006-08-12T10:12:00.000-07:00

Today, I went to watch Tokyo Drift! Nice! Nice! Is better than I imagine, cause of newspaper review. Lol! Althought most of the actor acting s*** but when they drift it cover all that up. This show is totally better than initial D!!!

When you get popular, it is hard to find someone trustable......

2006-08-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

Dear you-know-who-you-are,
I hope that you will, first of all, appreciate the fact that I mention no names. I happened to chance upon your blog and read the post dating, 09 August 2006. And to tell you the truth, I found it rather disturbing. I decided to tag you and explain to you what actually happened but I realised that you haven't got any board for me to tag. So I had to approach YW for help. Please, if you have anyone to blame, blame me.

Okay. Let's start.

I am terribly sorry for spoiling your mood and turning up, well, "uninvited". Had I known that my presence will spoil and get into your way of having fun, I'd certainly not have turned up. However, what is done is done. What happened, happened. So I guess, the only thing I can do now is to explain to you what was the actual plan on our side. In return, I wish that you will not flare up and read till the end. Pardon me for my terrible use of language as well.

I believed that you did not know what I was, in fact, invited along to watch the fireworks. But because it was sort of a last minute thing, so I can't say much. Much less, blame you for saying that. What I found disturbing was that you said that you were in quite a bad mood due to ONE uninvited guest. At that time, I was with 3 other guy friends. So it wasn't exactly ONE. In addition, if I knew that most of you were unhappy, I could and would have left with my friends. Then again, that was 'IF I knew.'

I felt that you could have approached me or any of us, or if you were shy, you could have told YW, Daren, Keith or even Eugene(he's my primary school friend) that you are not happy with the fact that we turned up. I think that any of us would have got the hint and leave.

Reading on, you also mention 'since uu lyk her so much, then join them lorr'. Seriously, I felt injust for YW. Clearly, you did not seem to understand YW's rationale of doing so. It was not out of 'like', in your terms and my inference, that he kept us company. He asked us along so he felt that it was only the right thing to do to keep us company lest we feel left out. I seriously don't think that it was fair to him nor me.

Without doubt, you have spent more time with YW than me, in fact, you have known him longer than I did. My personal impression of YW is that he is a guy who knows what is responsibility. He felt that he was obliged to keep us company because he asked us along. If you felt that I had 'stole' YW away from you and your friends, I apologise.

Contradictedly, I didn't understand what was that smile for. At least, it looks like a smile to me. 'cause I usually put smiles like that, =). Your's so happened to be the opposite. You obviously seemed very put off with whatever happened.

I think you have developed the ability of only being able to spot girls. Throughout that 3-4 lines, you kept shooting me. Were my friends that transparent? I don't think that grew up eating 'glass'. Once again, I don't think it was fair to me.

Sorry that my presence affected you so much. I never knew that I could create such a deep impact on a person like that. I hold by my words, I would not have turned up had I known things will turn out this way. Frankly, I rather that you turned up and have fun with YW and your friends than I coming and thus causing such a big hoo-ha.

All that I had said above comes from my heart. Although it was tough to avoid my usual way so as to prevent more social collision, but I think that it is worth it if you had really taken time and read the entire post. If you are fuming now, please re-read again. I think you might have got the wrong idea of certain parts. Otherwise, you can ask YW for my contact. I'd gladly explain it all over again.

I sincerely hope that a day's incident and misunderstanding would not have jeopardized your friendship with him. YW is really a fanstastic guy with great sense of responsibilty. Please do not be mistaken, I am NOT in love with him NOR have I developed any special kind of feelings for him. He's just a good friend of mine.

Let bygones be bygones. =)

With sincerity,
eunice.

2006-08-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

Two days ago, I went back to my home again (Marina square). Because Choon and I thought that there would be fireworks again.Lol! It end up never fire there. We went together with the Brotherhood's members and Ahdila, Sham e.t.c. Although most of the Brotherhood's members is late, but at least we are organise. Thanks to Choon! Good organiser that scam us.lol!Kidding! At least, we had fun there! And 1 more things is settle. That day, was really very romantic, the sea was nice and it was full moon. The breeze was also very cooling. It was really perfect. I wish I could be together with my destiny girl there. How I wish?lol!

Sometimes, look at things at different perspective! Don't be a fool......

I feel that I had write abit too harsh so I edit it...congratZ you have found the secret message.Copy and past this *=D* you wil get a prize!

2006-08-08T20:22:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Melvan!!!Sorry forget to add the day before.Choon, Eunice, Jowell, Kenyon, Jun Wei, I give you all my sincere apology yesterday.

Yesterday, was a very bad day for me and Choon. I don't know why nowadays people lack of appreciation. Choon, Eunice, Jowell, Kenyong, Jun Wei, they all don't know most of you and they still take the trouble to wait for you all for around 1hour. really I think they deserve a sorry or at least a thank you. Okay that is still not that worst, but one person still had the cheek to chase us away!I think I shall not continue as I would make alot more people more unhappy.I shall not vent my anger here, I will vent my anger later in dota. Ya, btw thanks Hong Hui.

Although today there is a very tough day to go through but the firework is still very nice. I am impress by the coordination and 1 of the new invention they have.Eunice I hope your leg is okay. Yesterday, you look like you are going to faint, I am so worried you know?lol! Ya!I like you...As a friend!!!HahAX!

Maybe I will stop believing in somethings......

2006-08-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

Okay, I shall make a post for you since you seem to want it alot. I don't know what you are tagging seriously. In my blog everything is about what I think. And also this is my first post that talk about you. Now did you see things clearer? Did you misunderstand something?If you are feeling rather down you could talk to me or someone else, but don't come to my blog to vent your anger! Ok? If you not happy with me just tag out. Don't tag things that have no head nor tails. Seriously I getting more worried about you. I know that you don't know how to judge people. You usually only listen to a sided story and judge things. Things shouldn't be judge this way. We must listen to both side then to judge things. Understand? Yup! And also when you feel that a person had done something wrong, you should try to tell the person and help him not to make the same mistake, but not leaving him to rot. Unless if his mindset won't change. NEVER EVER SAY I BETRAY YOU, BECAUSE I NEVER EVEN BETRAY SOMEONE. NOT TODAY,NOT EVER!!!YOU CAN ASK AROUND, ASK WHO HAD BEEN BETRAY BY ME?IF THAT PERSON SAY I DID.PROVE IT!!!NB DO YOU KNOW I PISS BECAUSE OF YOU SAYING THIS WORD!!!

Fighting is not about how strong you are, but is about how high your fighting spirit are.No matter what you do, you must believe......

2006-08-05T09:59:00.001-07:00

Everyone thinks that a person always smile means his is happy. But tell the truth he may not always happy even if he smile alot. A smile to me is just a treat to my friend. Do you like your friends to be grumpy all day? Nope I assume, right? You will obviously thinking is he/she pmsing! lol!

I don't know anyone know this but I decided to give everyone a treat. It is not smiling but it is a not so important secret. Lol! To everyone, people will think that when I am joke and monkey around, that is my true self. You know what? It is not!!! My truth self is quiet, I do not let alot of people know me well. To many people they do not know what I am thinking. Am i right to say that? But no matter what, I will not think of how to harm people. I am not like somone!!! Even though you trying be like me but you are not as good as me at hiding. Many people know what you are up to...I give you a Ying Qi ming yan "What goes around comes around." Define it more " careful of retribution. " I don't think you will be able to control this.

Think before you strike, don't be a fool think after striking......

2006-08-04T18:28:00.000-07:00

In this world, I think there is lot of things that you cannot make your own choice. Agree?Example, people free will. You can choose to like someone but if she don't like you no matter how you choose you all still cannot be together. In life there is not everything we can choose, we are not god. We can't decide a person fate.

To tell the truth I am really not the man that I was. In the past, no matter what I will argue my points till I will, but now I am different. When people wanted to quarrel with me, I will let them win. My old nick can be thrown already."I am always right." Now I am totally a without passion in doing alot of things.

Sometime I don't know why? People rather trust those untrustable than to trust their own close friends. Nevermind I am used to it and I don't like forcing. If you wanted to tell me you would tell me, but if won't, no matter how I force you also will not have any outcome.

Being a hero needs to sacrifice enormously......

2006-07-31T08:02:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Keith~

Today I got detention class till 5pm. All because Mr Sim don't know he ate wrong what medicine. Lol! He now don't know because of stress or what make him so restless.

Never mind about. Later, when to eat with Si Yun, Daren, Gladys, Mei Sen, Keith. Guess what? My whole meal was spoiled by Daren, because of his two $1 coin. Lol! Never mind Daren, you shall be forgiven.

Now, I am neither happy nor sad. I will only attain happiness until you......And I will attain saddnes only you...... Until that day, I shall use remain my feelings neutral at all cost. Lol! Keith I am glad to see your cheerful despite...... But I know that the sad part is hiden inside you.

I had waited 1306 Days......

2006-07-30T02:33:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really a very busy day for me, I could only reached home at 10.45 pm. 1st I woke up at 8.15 am, ask KJ call early never call. Zzz... So, I had to call him. Then, I prepared to go to Expo to watched Haryani, HW, Choon competition. I am glad that all three of them went in the top 16 but sad to say Haryani and Choon couldn't proceed to the next round. Never mind, at least there is always a next time. Ya! KJ also owe alot of us a treat. Lol!Who call him want give people motivation lar!LOL!

After the competition, we went to Tampanies Mall to have our lunch. Later, arcade. In the arcade, we met a weird guy who go around challenging people to play with him the hockey thingy where you use a thing to hit a pluck into your opponent "goal post". Although he is good but still very weird. When his opponent shoot in he will like bang the table. When he score he will act cool. Lol!

An hour or so later, I went home with KJ and Choon taking bus number 8. It was a super long ride, so we slept in the bus. Haha! Then, we alight at my house there and KJ go take another bus. But Choon and me walked to Choon house and I went on alone to Bishan myself.

After meeting Eunice they all, we like spent our time meaninglessly at J8. At least, we mingle around with our new friends, Ai Sha, Filbert, You Long, Jowell. Haha! See i remember all their name. After a very sianZ walk at J8, we decided to proceed early to NYJC. Then, no choice but to wait there again. SianZ!!! When it was about time, all of us was like finally! Eug and Dar happily talking and insulting there.LOL! I just sat there and take picture. Unfortunately all the picture were quite blur. Hahx! Overall, the performance was not bad. I like the third performance of the mordern dance. Lol!

Finally I reached home for the 1st time yesterday. But after an hour I leave again to watched Long Hu Men. Not bad I shall say. But I feel that no enough fighting and it was totally predictable. Best Quote: "Have you ever beaten someone you shuoldn't beat?" said Wang Xiao Long to Wang Xiao Hu.
" Nope." Wang Xiao Hu reply.
" I have, glad that you remember what I said, you don't because you are the good guy but I am the villian. I had been force to do alot of things against my will. But, at least I know I live on with my principles, duty and responsibility and so do you. Wang Xiao Long preached."

Today saw alot of beautiful girls, but i can put none of them in my heart or in my world. As my heart and world is occupied by someone, although you don't know it. But I love you......

2006-07-27T06:50:00.000-07:00

I am neither sad nor happy currently. It was because I feel sick at this world. Maybe died is the reward of living? But don't be silly to commit suicide! I know how painful some of the people feel. But commiting suicide is just running away from the problem and the problem still cannot be solve. Worst still you will create more trouble. So how can we be so selfish? Actually, I don't even not what am I writting? Never mind I shall continue writting.

This is the logo of Shuang Fei.Lol! It may seem weird why we change the yinyang sign to yin yin. There is actually a meaning behind this. The wing is there because our group name is Shuang Fei without wing how to fly?Lol! Other you try and decipher it yourself.Hahx

Never regret what you did. Amend it......

2006-07-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

Today went home that time, Mel, Dar, Kei and I saw one girl fell down from the stairs. Luckily, she was fine but soak with liquid that was in a bottle that look like beer. That incident remind me of a quote that was told by Choon. "No matter how many times you fell down don't count it, what you must count is how many times you picked yourself up."

Later in the day, Choon and I met up. I felt that Choon had change. You no longer shared the same ideas. But you grew alot. Thats is very good. You finally know how to treat your friends around better. Remember, if you want to help someone you must put yourself in that person shoe. If you don't know how he feel and don't even know what he was thinking, how well can you succeed in helping him?

Look around you, what you see? Observe it, you will find surprises......

2006-07-24T06:36:00.000-07:00

I had started to lose confidence in alot of things now, I don't know why I felt this way.

Although I had lose my confidence, I shall never lose m hope.

No matter what, I will find you as my pillar of strength even if you do not know.

I shall succeed, i shall create miracle.

為你付出那種傷心你永遠不瞭解我又何苦勉強自己愛上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退我的防備靜靜關上門來默數我的淚

明知道讓你離開他的世界不可能會我還傻傻等到奇跡出現的那一天

直到那一天你會發現真正愛你的人獨自守著傷悲

曾經我以為我自己會後悔不想愛的太多癡心絕對

為你落第一滴淚為你做任何改變也喚不回你對我的堅決

If you want to view this please change source encoding to traditional chinese......

This song suit me best......

2006-07-22T21:36:00.000-07:00

Hi! People I am back for more posting. Hehe! Yesterday, as some of you might know I went to a birthday celebration with Choon. Yup! It was indeed a fun day =D But yesterday never play dota with them because all computer there spoiled. What kind of lan shop is that? A lan shop that cannot play lan! LOL! Wasted! So many pro gather there yesterday, is a very good chance to improve. Lol!

Okay, lets talk more about the event in the party. When Choon and I went there the celebration had start very long ago already. As we did not want to eat at Marina South so we came abit later. When we went there, the first they did was taking photo with us. LOL! Choon pull me in with them. Zzz... After that, we went to mingle around. Haha! Choon did a funny thing. Zzz... He call for Jy and told her I want to talk to her. LOL! I mean what the hell!!! I am so embarrassed! So the thing I do next was PUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! Haha!

Moment later, we went to play arcade. Drew play a bball game that will never end if you keep wining. Lol! Ya! I have not mention how power was Drew beat boxing! It was very nice even without a mike! Yesterday, I really get to know alot of new friends like: Teeming( The handsome bday boy ), Clair etc......OkayZ, here is the end of yesterday!!!

I really don't understand why most of the girls I had a crush on, always dao me.Sob!!! Luckily got some never as they don 't know I crush on them before XD... I just wondering why? Is it that people had a crush on you before cannot be your friend? What about if you had a crush on a guy, then that guy did the same thing to what you all did to me how would all of you feel? I really do wish to know is it that I not worthy of being your friend? Or other reason? Can anyone tell me?

Now, people start to notice about me and eug. And they had started questioning. All I could say was he did alot of thing that harm me. I just don't feel like having him in my circle of friend. I have forgiven him too many times le. He himself know what happen. So I won't say more to it. I understand that in this world nothing is greater than forgiveness. But I even if I forgive him, what is the use? Make him betray me again? He had so many friends already, 1 more lesser doesn't make any difference. Someone told me that I should change him not to spoiled friendship with him. But I feel that my ability now could not help. I am not a god you know, I can't do much, I also can't do what others fellow human cannot do. Do yu all know how much things he did? He did tooo much things and thought I didn't know. I just wanted to tell him this "I know you better than most of the people." I am different from others that what you once told me. So you should know I am capable of alot of things too. And don't try to think that you can hide your deeds forever. God know!!!

I believe everyone will change as time passes with the surrounding and people they met. But their basic nature will never change. Eg. A bad guy will still remain as a bad guy, unless you are not a bad person at nature......

2006-07-18T08:10:00.000-07:00

This very day, I went to KTV with Mel they all. It was a fun trip yet a disappointed day for me and for those who had faith in me. I sing about 4 songs. Lol! Hei se mao yi, jian jian dan dan, sha shi bi ya de tian fen, forever love, but I never sing my best two songs.Tong hua and Kiss Goodbye.No tong hua cause LSY hate that song scared later she cry.No kiss goodbye because there don't have.LOL! The 1st song I sang was hei se mao yi and it was totally suck, although mel say it was better than last time. I know it was just to make me feel better.It was because when I sing that song I was fooling around. I can't concentrate, I don't what is bugging me. Later in the day, LSY said she know why I was eliminated on xyss, I tell her the reason myself which is the tune and key all haywire. And I also told her I don't know the tune very well yet and I don't really know how control mike well, but the truth is I already knew it all, how can I don't know the tune and key =.=''' I sing it quite often. But the can't control voice on mike is true.LOL! The real reason I never perform well just now was...1.I never concentrate.2.In my mindset I was only there to have fun not to showcase talent.3. I never sing like I normally will sing in front of tc is maybe because when I sing with my real voice or I normally would I was afraid of bad opinions from others, as I aiming for perfection. As for the other songs, I feel that I sang jian jian dan dan quite well but I don't think anyone could really hear me. As mel is singing as well and he style of sing of that song is really different from mind. Mo qi bu kou I shall say. Then, sha si pi ya de tian fen I can't concentrate well too, as don't know which @#$%^ go on the audio, so when I sing I will keep like following the style of JJ.As for forever love, nothing to cause it was to insult gladys. Enough about me on just now for now.lol!

now I which post about what I think about the performance just now. No offense people! Mel sing the best just now. His only mistake was like mine and tc last time. Anyhow zhuan ying sometimes.lol! But what I could say is his zhuan ying really very nice. I really not sure why the girl eeeeeeeeeeek for what? Dar was very high and alot of action and when he sing with mel they totally mo qi 100%.lol! No wonder they are known as best tag team. Arhahx!!!Kei only do some rapping and Sen never sing. Gla sing most of the time very flat no feeling but sing untill very relax. S Y also very flat but her voice is natural nice, so of cause she sing will be well but don't why can zhao shia sometimes and keep using bi ying.Ya dar also Zhao Shia Tian Wang!!!What can I say more other than GE YOU QIAN QIU!!!

Joker of the day: Me

Best singer of the day:Melv

Coolest of the day:Kei

Quiet of the day:Sen

Mike holder of the day:SY

Host of the day: Gla

Okay lets get back to me after a break, later when I meet up with tc and told him about the event on KTV. He told me he really disappointed cause he know how well I sing more than anyone. He told me I should sing truefully even if I scared opinions, so I can learn more. No matter what I do I must be serious, must respect what you do and yourself. If you want performed must definitely make it your best cannot play around. After hearing that, my mindset from going there for having fun to if I was there to fool around why bother even singing.haha! Quite disappointed with myself after much consideration because I can do alot better than just now. tc also said that if you want to aim for the top you must 1st passed your own test 1st. I personally feel it was quite true and I know that it could also be put in other place other than singing. LSY once told me that I could not passed the audition no matter what, I really wanted to tell her this," people will improve and don't judge people by once or twice of their performance or mistake. They may hide their talent or something happen to them or off form." Form is actually important but a good singer their form will most likely always at their peak. They will also off form sometime like JJ in one of his concert.

Before I end, I must sincerely apologised to TC and the rest of the people going to KTV and those who have total faith in me. I am really sorry. Thanks TC also as he told me god made us people with mistake so we can constantly improved ourself just don't made it again.Ya! One last thing, I will never regret joining xyss because it really change my music life. My talent in music is coming from experience and not from nature. Not like some of the people with born talent. lol! I promised this next time I perform something I will try my best, and not like today. If you all have notice, all the key I sing all high even it should be low.You all got notice?

We people must constantly improved and must not let down by mistake, this is what I learned today.

2006-07-15T20:03:00.000-07:00

Yo! I am back to posting after two days. Hehe! Yesterday, went to watch Pirates of Caribean 2 with the JKY2. Quite nice but we got the second row from the front seats. Zzzz... Almost spoiled our eyesight. During the show, Gladys sms me. Lol! I never on silence!!! Haha! Luckily no one complain. After the show, we was waiting for the credits to finished. We all was like !@#$%^&* as the credits was s damn f****** long and guess what after the credits was some damn dog being treating as god. A moment or two later, Mel was urgently needing the toilets, So he ran to the toilet. LOL!

When the show was over, we went to Xing house for steam boat. Haha! While we reach there, we was all so hungary waiting for Geraldine and Dominate. Lol! Dominating, kidding.
The steam boats was like everyone never eat foods for 10 years, all snatch here and there.lol! The 1st round Kei and I didn't even get the soup.Zzzz...Later, I only got to eat 1 wanton only but I like the scalop most.lol! After eating, we went to Xing room and play. Kei and I happily torturing Gladys the bear.LOL! Treating it like a baseball and using bolster as baseball bat.haha! Then, we play ren ti hei bai chei.lol! Loser will be beat by Kei and me with bolster as punishment.Woot! Suddenly, the game became jin zhi mi ma. And the loser will be beat by everyone .lol!There was no holding back. All hit so hard on me but Dar was the worst.LOL!
Today, overall was a fun day.Yeah!!!

I am logging off now......

2006-07-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

Even though I am feeling down, there will still people who will intentionally provoke me. Not that who you are but I am feeling down and you are a girl or I am a coward or something just don't go too far. I am known for my temper and god strength. But I also swear that I will never beat a girl. Sob!!! If I can I would definitely give you a tight slap. I just no mood to argue with you, no choice let you win for once. You are safe for now.

Even though I try so hard but I still can't kick my gaming habits. Omg! What should I do? I want to study but at home I had no mood. How? I am a goner soon!!! Prelim is round the corner, if I never do something fast I will be dead.

I tried so hard yet I only got so far...
I tried so hard yet you did so harsh...
I will not give up...
I will not give in...
Love is painful yet is hatrat...
Don't cry...Miracles is near...
Believe......

2006-07-12T05:22:00.000-07:00

I feel that there is a particular person who is avoiding me. I not sure what the reason is.I feel that I am really not myself this few days. Either I am too hyper active or too quiet. I don't know what to say and I don't know what to do.I also don't even know what I am posting. Never mind, lets just go with the flow see what can I think of posting while posting.lol!ZZzzz...

I kind of miss the day of 7-11, actually I forgotten it le till yesterday. Yesterday was 11of July, but our birthday is on 7 of November. It was the opposite.Hahz! We used to had so much fun together and we are like one big family. We had lots of outings, we had shared lots of joy and sorrow. Until that day it was seperated. I still cant believe how small the matter was and can blew things up. I also had no ideas why that guy was so angry as he also did the same thing to us too. He was the last should be angry. At least that is what I think.

Although I like the days of 7-11, but I like T5 more. Currently, it became JKY square.HahZ! It was a short form actually. Now, we are all dota freaks. One day, I must at least play a game of dota or else I couldn't sleep.Lol!I think I will stop here barhx!

In school, I am not the only one who is sad. There are people who really need more console than me.

2006-07-10T07:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I watched world cup till nearly 5, so i only had like an hour of time sleeping.Never mind at least my prediction is correct. Italy won! Haha!But inside of me I want France to win but I just know they will lose as Italy formation and tactics was better and got a veri great goal keeper.

Today, I went to school very early just to sleep.Haha!It was raining too.Waa!So the feeling is so song!Then later in the day I continue sleeping on English and History lesson.Woot I shall say!Harhx

I don't why nowadays kind of like Fan Yi Cheng song.Zzz...And don't know what happen to me.I just can't seem to concentrate what I am doing.I was more quiet than usual and also I don't what I am thinking now?I just can't know myself.

If you like someone, must tell them sooner or the longer it get the harder it take.You may regret not saying eariler.

2006-07-08T09:39:00.000-07:00

As I just tio the virus of eun and I cant complain, so it my turn.Sob!LOL!

Your Ten Favourite:

Favourite colours:Red, White, Green, Gold, Blue, PINK!!!

Favourite movie:Too much to name

Favourite sport:Basketball

Favourite season:Fall

Favourite Ice cream flavour:Choc-chip mint

Favourite country:Japan(Teehehehe,I like the chio little things there!!!KiddingLOL!)

Favourite thing:My notebook!

Your Nine Current:

Current mood: Lost and Blue

Current clothes:Man U pant n underwear oni(Zzzz)

Current desktop:Kira n Lacus with wings

Current toe nail:Colourless

Current time:12.4650pm

Current annoyance:Me

Current thought:Someone......

Current song:Hai Lang

Your Eight First

First girlfriend:None(Sob!!!)

First Crush:6 1/2

First movie:How to remember lol!

First piercing:None

First lie: I am 2 years old(lol! a stupid lie i made in my younger days whn i dunno my age)

First music: I dunno lol!

First cry:20th October 1990

Your Six Last

Last Drink:Pokka Green Tea

Last Crush: 15th December 2004(Althought I dont like her now)

Last movie seen:Stm lol!

Last phone call:Today!!!

Last cd played:S.H.E Bu Xiang Zhang Ta

Five Things You Are Wearing:

Watch, Pant,underwear(lol?Duh!!!) erm..nothing else le...

Four Things You Have Done Today:

Window Shopping, Play, Sing songs, Listen to Songs

Three Things I Heard Now:

5566 boyfriend song, Signing sound of my godfather,My typing sound from keyboard

Two Things You Cant Live Without:

Someone and my senses

One thing I do when I bored:

Anyhow fool around

2006-07-06T02:47:00.000-07:00

Today I took my oral examination, it was quite alright. The experience was an interesting one.Lol! Because of this oral I had to wax up my hair. Zzz......But never mind this was my first time wax to school after a very long time =D

My pestismistic side came back. I don't know whether what to do. Should I or Should I not? I am in doubt, I wished, I just wished to have the chance. And I also wished that all my friends were no hypocrit or betrayal. How I wonder? Why must there be more bad guys than the good ones. WHY? Why would also a country told so many lies and destroy so many resoures and human lives for just an abjective? WHY? Maybe I am too naive that no bad people will appear unless in a movie or a show.

I really wished I had the chance to go back through time and be brave to tell you without distraction.Maybe this way we would already be together......

2006-07-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was youth day, so I went to my favourite place(Marina Square) with my buddies Teck Choon and Kai Jie. Guess what I saw went I was there eating? I saw Azizi and Khairi and their groups of girlfriend. LOL?! Everytime I went there my passion of singing increased, even thought sore throat was demoralising me but down there all of my weakness and those things that faltering me was gone. My heart is only thinking of singing. Ya! After eating there we went to Novena and see piano. When we arrived there the shop had already closed but that guy still let us in Xp......After a tour in that shop we went to toy'saurs to play X Box 360...Weird huh? Lol!

Teck Choon had ask me a few question making pondering through days. He asked me what if I really became an idol what will be my biggest aim? I can't really answer him at first but after much consideration I think it will be composing a song for my love will be my biggest aim now.He also asked assume that I completed my guitar and drum set courses what will I go for? I think I will go for dancing will be my final answer to him. Lol!

In music, I really had alot to catch up like my biggest weakness in music. That is not going the right tune and also I am too lazy to really forcused to learn a song. I enjoy hearing them and singing but I don't enjoy the process of learning. Lol! If I can overcome one weakness of mine I surely can overcome all right. Haha! I had already mastered my pass weakness which is high notes, so can I mastered my weakness now.

Okay, now lets talk about today. Today, I never went to school just to go KJ house to learn abit of grade 1 piano.Hahx! And later cracking brain about where to go after we eat. Finally we settle on the idea of going to La La Land. We go there to swim and then sauna. It was a fun trip there I really think that I had almost made the best out of today.Hehe!

If you feel like doing something, don't lets other pouring of cold water stop you. Just go ahead or you will really regretZ it......

2006-07-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

As you all know I rarely blog, because I don't post about normal day life which has nothing exciting. So forgive me if I like 1 week or so never post anything.

I have changed. Although I may not look like it but I did change. I have changed from the inside, my thoughts, my dream etc... People always said that no matter what I do I would always be confident or sometimes over-confident. In truth I did appear confident, but what I can say about them is that they don't know me well enough. I may appear confident but inside me there will always be this fear. I fear that I won't do till what I expect of myself. This is my failure and causes my downfall in life. One day I will remove it permanantly.

Lets talk about the reopening of school. That day, I feel wonderful seeing all my peers in school. I really do miss them a million. Haha! Gladys had changed her hairstyle, seriously speaking it looked nicer than all her previous hair style. Esther......still the same...lol! Keith had become a little more smart and mature + he take insult more lightly. Thats good, so you won't live with the nightmares of insult. I know some of them do stay but you will overcome it and bad luck one day, I have total faith in you. Daren had changed to dota freak.LOL! Kidding!Melvan had not change much. I think I should continue about changes till here.

As I told some of you that I will join jdss but it seems that other than Choon no one have faith in me. My singing really do improve after the concert. If others can do it why can't we? There is no reason they can do it and we can't. We all are human it is just the matter of how devotion you put in. That is what Mr Nathan trying to tell us the other day and this is what I will prove to all of you. I will defintely some how or rather. It is just the matter of time, but time is just an excuse. But who cares as long as I can prove that this verse does exist. To me, to accomplish this I need support from my peers and parents, only if they stand by me and give me the motivation and I will succeed.

In this world all we need to is believe. Beliving will lead to succeed but don't believe the wrong person or you may regret. Basically all you to do first is believe in yourself......

2006-06-25T01:03:00.000-07:00

School reopening tommorrow, I am quite excited to go back school to meet all of you people. I miss Keith,Daren,Melvan,Mei Sen,Esther even though she kept copying me,Gladys,Hong Hui...Basically I miss all of you, erm...most of you!!!

Yesterday, I woke up late,so I miss the dancing performance in TCC.So sorry Eunice!!!I also miss the dota competition.Sob!!!Sob!!!Then Choon came playing dota,so funny.He quarrel with online people.He said:"do you know who is Ah Hock."The verse from Kian Yong.Wahahaha!!!

At night, I go church party.Wow there got alot of Chio Gals!!!Woot!Is like eating ice-cream with your eyes.Kidding!!!I must be faithful.LOL!The service I fair it good.The food is even nicer.lol! After the thing, we went home at the time of 11.30pm. And I reached home at about 12.30pm. Zzzz...

Do you ever been betrayed,how does it feel? Do you ever been a victim of hyprocrit or a backstabber, how does it feel? You feel bad doesn't it? So don't ever do this my friend.I don't hate this kind of people,but I despised this kind of people!!! I forgived him so many times but I had forgiven him the last time......Believe there is this thing called RETRIBUITION!!!

2006-06-21T08:36:00.000-07:00

Today woke up at 10 pm due to Keith wake up call.Lol! Although Joey also call very eary in the morning, still it did not wake me up.Woot I skip chinese lesson.Haha!When I woke up I when back to sleep again, but then my alarm I set on my h/p yesterday woke me up again. >.<>

Woot again, my DnT work piece is finishing. Congrats to me.LOL!

I went straight home after that to prepare myself to Aaron Lim concert at 8pm. That concert was very nice, nice till words cannot described. The venue was located at Marina Square second floor Ai Qing Hai. We saw alot of stars there, got Kelly, Silver, some superband member and of course Lee Wei Song etc...... Now I know why that time I never make it in the XYSS. I still not up to standard but now. MuhAhaAhhaAhaAhaHAahHAhAha!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was a fun day, because I saw Kel zg hahaha......

2006-06-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

14th June 2006
Two days ago,i went to karaoke with my mum and her friend.My confidence in singing gained le.Yay!But when I sind I feel very weird because I could not hear my voice because they on the mike to full.One of my mum friend call girl come in and they ask me wanna call for me.Of course I say NO!!! I am not such person.LOL!They say call only for chit chatting and not what I think, so abit embarrassed.Ya!I also drink Martell there.Woot!The martell super nice.(Martell is some kind of expensive wind)

There is nothing in this world never change, everyone and everything will change......

2006-06-11T10:54:00.000-07:00

12 June 2006 - Monday
NOTICE :
FROM TODAY ONWARDS IF U HAVE ANY PROPLEM FEEL FREE TO TAG UR PROBLEM OUT.I WILL TRY MY BEST TO HELP!!!NO NEED SCARED TROUBLE ME BECAUSE THIS HAS BECOME MY HOBBY!!!

2006-06-10T10:37:00.000-07:00

11th June 2006 -Sunday
To alot of people they may not know I have grow, I have grow up alot. I not only saying physically but not to mention mentally.I have dare to do alot more things than the past.I have gone through alot of things.I dare say more than most of you people. I may not seem the way I proclaim but one day you will all believe.

I am sad yet happy, I am happy yet sad.I am contented yet remorse, I am remorse yet contented. Who can tell me the meaning of this if you had not experience it yourself.Even if you can deciper the correct meaning, it will all be empty words.

To tell the truth, that the way of love...