<|>The Burning Soul<|>

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

This very day, I went to KTV with Mel they all. It was a fun trip yet a disappointed day for me and for those who had faith in me. I sing about 4 songs. Lol! Hei se mao yi, jian jian dan dan, sha shi bi ya de tian fen, forever love, but I never sing my best two songs.Tong hua and Kiss Goodbye.No tong hua cause LSY hate that song scared later she cry.No kiss goodbye because there don't have.LOL! The 1st song I sang was hei se mao yi and it was totally suck, although mel say it was better than last time. I know it was just to make me feel better.It was because when I sing that song I was fooling around. I can't concentrate, I don't what is bugging me. Later in the day, LSY said she know why I was eliminated on xyss, I tell her the reason myself which is the tune and key all haywire. And I also told her I don't know the tune very well yet and I don't really know how control mike well, but the truth is I already knew it all, how can I don't know the tune and key =.=''' I sing it quite often. But the can't control voice on mike is true.LOL! The real reason I never perform well just now was...1.I never concentrate.2.In my mindset I was only there to have fun not to showcase talent.3. I never sing like I normally will sing in front of tc is maybe because when I sing with my real voice or I normally would I was afraid of bad opinions from others, as I aiming for perfection. As for the other songs, I feel that I sang jian jian dan dan quite well but I don't think anyone could really hear me. As mel is singing as well and he style of sing of that song is really different from mind. Mo qi bu kou I shall say. Then, sha si pi ya de tian fen I can't concentrate well too, as don't know which @#$%^ go on the audio, so when I sing I will keep like following the style of JJ.As for forever love, nothing to cause it was to insult gladys. Enough about me on just now for now.lol!

now I which post about what I think about the performance just now. No offense people! Mel sing the best just now. His only mistake was like mine and tc last time. Anyhow zhuan ying sometimes.lol! But what I could say is his zhuan ying really very nice. I really not sure why the girl eeeeeeeeeeek for what? Dar was very high and alot of action and when he sing with mel they totally mo qi 100%.lol! No wonder they are known as best tag team. Arhahx!!!Kei only do some rapping and Sen never sing. Gla sing most of the time very flat no feeling but sing untill very relax. S Y also very flat but her voice is natural nice, so of cause she sing will be well but don't why can zhao shia sometimes and keep using bi ying.Ya dar also Zhao Shia Tian Wang!!!What can I say more other than GE YOU QIAN QIU!!!

Joker of the day: Me

Best singer of the day:Melv

Coolest of the day:Kei

Quiet of the day:Sen

Mike holder of the day:SY

Host of the day: Gla

Okay lets get back to me after a break, later when I meet up with tc and told him about the event on KTV. He told me he really disappointed cause he know how well I sing more than anyone. He told me I should sing truefully even if I scared opinions, so I can learn more. No matter what I do I must be serious, must respect what you do and yourself. If you want performed must definitely make it your best cannot play around. After hearing that, my mindset from going there for having fun to if I was there to fool around why bother even singing.haha! Quite disappointed with myself after much consideration because I can do alot better than just now. tc also said that if you want to aim for the top you must 1st passed your own test 1st. I personally feel it was quite true and I know that it could also be put in other place other than singing. LSY once told me that I could not passed the audition no matter what, I really wanted to tell her this," people will improve and don't judge people by once or twice of their performance or mistake. They may hide their talent or something happen to them or off form." Form is actually important but a good singer their form will most likely always at their peak. They will also off form sometime like JJ in one of his concert.

Before I end, I must sincerely apologised to TC and the rest of the people going to KTV and those who have total faith in me. I am really sorry. Thanks TC also as he told me god made us people with mistake so we can constantly improved ourself just don't made it again.Ya! One last thing, I will never regret joining xyss because it really change my music life. My talent in music is coming from experience and not from nature. Not like some of the people with born talent. lol! I promised this next time I perform something I will try my best, and not like today. If you all have notice, all the key I sing all high even it should be low.You all got notice?

We people must constantly improved and must not let down by mistake, this is what I learned today.

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 8:10 AM