Sunday, July 08, 2007
Just when I log in to blog this post, I saw this word Xiang Xing Jiu Neng Zhao Dao Zheng Ai. Translation is Believing will let you to true love. This is what I am searching for from the past till now. This words remind me of Lai Shi Yun question when I told her I already broken up with my girlfriend. Is there true love in this world? Although I just broken from a relationship, still I know true love is there. It always lies there wating for my arrival. It is just like a game of hide and seek. Is whether you find it or continue being the catcher.Sad to annouce this but, I already broken up with my girlfriend yesterday at 10.09pm. Too sudden but I already prepared for this since the day we are together. Why I still confessed to her and ask her to be my girlfriend? I made a wrong move and now starting to regret. Thats why I owe her a big sorry. I shouldn't had confessed, I shouldn't had tried. Yet I owe her a thank you too. She let me experienced the wonders in a relationship, although I never even hug or kissed her once. During this time, I can safely say that I had grown up. I am matured already! But, I still will feel devastated even I lose nothing in that relationship. Its was my Chu Lian ad furthermore I not just lose a girlfriend, I lost my dream too. So people don't think that I am such a heartless person. Ke Shi Wo Na De Qi Fang De Xia! Translation I know how to pick it up and I must know how to let it go. =DI am not trying to be impassive! Impassive is me! The nature of mine, I can't change it or try not to be. Have you all ever seen a clown or a joker weep? Its the same concept in my case. It will be too weird to see me emo in one end of a corner. To tell the truth I was very depressed yesterday, depressed till I can't sleep. I just closed my eyes and think alot of things throught the night and yes I am enlighten. I must be true to what I said to her also. I did not even shed a tear even through this. Not that I don't want but I made my vow. Do you all know the pain of unable to cry? Try making the vow to a star and you will know. Please people, I know I am a like a stone outside. No emotion only happiness, but I am not heartless. Do take note*!I forget to add why we break off suddenly. Not any of us fault. We are fated but no affinity. In a relationship there is no right or wrong. She claims that she is not ready yet. We both know each other not that well and after 29 days later of knowing each other we become couples le. Now I truely understand of the meaning of not to rush. I think that the phrase for this relationship is gone because the other party love me not deep enough... I will always love you in silence...
All is lost no point clinging on the relation. Being friends is a good ending...Sorry Wan Ling I never done my best and thanks for trying to accept me... C=
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