<|>The Burning Soul<|>

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Just when I log in to blog this post, I saw this word Xiang Xing Jiu Neng Zhao Dao Zheng Ai. Translation is Believing will let you to true love. This is what I am searching for from the past till now. This words remind me of Lai Shi Yun question when I told her I already broken up with my girlfriend. Is there true love in this world? Although I just broken from a relationship, still I know true love is there. It always lies there wating for my arrival. It is just like a game of hide and seek. Is whether you find it or continue being the catcher.

Sad to annouce this but, I already broken up with my girlfriend yesterday at 10.09pm. Too sudden but I already prepared for this since the day we are together. Why I still confessed to her and ask her to be my girlfriend? I made a wrong move and now starting to regret. Thats why I owe her a big sorry. I shouldn't had confessed, I shouldn't had tried. Yet I owe her a thank you too. She let me experienced the wonders in a relationship, although I never even hug or kissed her once. During this time, I can safely say that I had grown up. I am matured already! But, I still will feel devastated even I lose nothing in that relationship. Its was my Chu Lian ad furthermore I not just lose a girlfriend, I lost my dream too. So people don't think that I am such a heartless person. Ke Shi Wo Na De Qi Fang De Xia! Translation I know how to pick it up and I must know how to let it go. =D

I am not trying to be impassive! Impassive is me! The nature of mine, I can't change it or try not to be. Have you all ever seen a clown or a joker weep? Its the same concept in my case. It will be too weird to see me emo in one end of a corner. To tell the truth I was very depressed yesterday, depressed till I can't sleep. I just closed my eyes and think alot of things throught the night and yes I am enlighten. I must be true to what I said to her also. I did not even shed a tear even through this. Not that I don't want but I made my vow. Do you all know the pain of unable to cry? Try making the vow to a star and you will know. Please people, I know I am a like a stone outside. No emotion only happiness, but I am not heartless. Do take note*!

I forget to add why we break off suddenly. Not any of us fault. We are fated but no affinity. In a relationship there is no right or wrong. She claims that she is not ready yet. We both know each other not that well and after 29 days later of knowing each other we become couples le. Now I truely understand of the meaning of not to rush. I think that the phrase for this relationship is gone because the other party love me not deep enough... I will always love you in silence...

All is lost no point clinging on the relation. Being friends is a good ending...

Sorry Wan Ling I never done my best and thanks for trying to accept me... C=

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:17 AM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

I shall post before I leave Singapore. It had been long since I travelled out of this place of misery aka Shang Xin Di. Lol! Why I call this a place of misery? It is due to its size, where can you go in Singapore? Feel really depressed when looking. Singapore is actually a nice place, except for it's size. If only Singapore is much more bigger, the economy will rise even further. It doesn't matter much though, because I still LOVE SINGAPORE!!! Singapore is the place where I met all my friends and of cause my BELOVED DEAR DEAR!!! =D

Yesterday, Dear come to Anderson for a tour and I am the tour guide of cause. So long never been back to school and it still had the sleeping curse. Feel so sleepy there. Lol! Hey! But I am not the only one who feel sleepy. Hehe! Dear compliment our school is very beautiful, but our class. Er... Long Men Ke Zhan!!! So dirty and messy. How come so dirty and messy? My table also shifted place. Zzz...... Then we proceeded to the school library, we go there slack and chit chat. Lol! Everyone was laughing like hell and the usual insults. ArhahaX! And suddenly daren took my Dear phone and prank called Esther. Sabo her... =.= Dear called back explained and she want to befriend with Esther. Gosh... I am worried, what if Esther teach her or influence her bad stuff? Zzzz...... Quite some time later, we went back d n t room and slack. Lol!

After leaving the Sleepy Wood, I went to extend the dateline of my passport. The queue was so long that it took me 2 hrs to reached my turn. 135 people in front of me!!! I felt guilty letting Melvan they all to wait for me. I rushed down to Serangoon straight after I am done to sing K. =D

Ok barhx... I shall post till here, for more info of the KTV session you can proceed to Eugene blog and visit. Haha!

Dear I will miss you dearly while on the trip to Genting. You must takecare worhx! =D

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 8:17 PM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Just woke up in a delight mood. No No! Not delight but something more powerful and happy to describe my mood. Do you all believe in this thing call "the heart connection"? Tell you what it happened just a moment ago.

While I was sleeping, I sensed this sound, this very sharp sound. I thought could not be my hp so I went back to sleep. Then I found myself trapping on the bed with dilemma. So I couldn't sleep. While this was happening, suddenly and sense a strong urge to run to take my hp despite my tireness. I was stun to see my hp off, as I was expecting an sms or something. I switched on my phone immediately and bring it to my room. Hoping to sleep better, but I cant help looking at the phone. I was still worried I guessed. So I prayed hard in my heart that she was alright and was having fun. Suddenly there was this phone call came and the no. was unrecognisable.

It was from her! I am overjoy now and don't know what to say. Arrrg!!! I should speak more. Zzzz...... Wasted, who call me just wake up. Lol! Yesterday, I was really worried, now the boulder had vanished. Like paper was burn by a fire, turn to ashes and be gone. So happy =D

This is not the only occasion, but there are few times that happened too. So I solely believed that heart could be connected and I think my ling hun force me to go get my phone de. LOL! Sorry that is an insider joke so many people will never understand de. => Quote by Hong Hui

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 10:52 AM

Nothing to do, want to study but can't. =X Cannot let my Dear Dear see this, or else I'll be in a hot soup. >.<>

Then I gotten quite depress while reading a particular person blog. The ENGLISH is so GOOD that I couldn't help thinking can my english be as good as hers? TC!!! You got to teach me how to use those chim english already, because I was made depress partly because of you. >.<

Now I found this smiley >.<>

Yesterday, very estactic and yet very stress too. Haha! But now much better lerhx. =D With my dear around, I can smile the whole day. Wahahaha!!! I am a happy man with a happy smile. LOL!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 10:52 AM

Everyone I apologised about my previous post, it is abit erm...... Lol! I was abit too overwhelmed by disappointment and fiery. Although I let the bygone bygone, still if you all understand what I trying to imply would be great. Haha!

Belated Congratulation to the Newly Wed: Eliza and Sammuel!

On Saturday, I went to attend my frd wedding lunch at Regeant Singapore 4 star hotel. I wore my most cooler formal shirt to there. Thats is my first time wearing it. Lol! The wedding ceremony was fun and the food was difinitely great. I was happy to be there and estactic to be invited to witness such a blissful moment.

Straight after the lunch ended, I went to my mum shop. To let her see how handsome her son had become. =D She shock to see me in that outfit, and can see her mouth wide open in disbelieved. Lol! I told her that shirt was brought by her and her mouth had open wider and it gotten larger when I told it was the first time I am wearing it. Actually I planned to wear that on graduation ball but it still a long way to go. Might as well wear it now. Haha!

Went to my mum shop, help her serve to customer and on my way to Cineleisure aka L2. Meeting Choon and Jia Zhe there to watch the B.O.T.Y (Breaking of the Year). Yu Ying caught us up shortly after we met. Then its time to barberque Pork. All of us was under the hot sun waiting for the competition/ performance to start. The weather was hot and all was sweating like there was no tomorrow. Saw Say Liang and his crew members, don't know whether did he spot me?

6.30pm, finally the show had started. Our seat was not a good one though, but at least got a quite clear view. All the competitors dance with eleglance and Radikal Forze indeed live up to its name. Such a strong footwork the team has, all the step mesmerized me. Floor Technique was a fierce competitors to Radikal Forze and I was shocked when Radikal Forze was announced the winner. In terms of style, power moves and teamwork FTC sure had the upperhand but RF method of battling was safer. I was quite disappointed to seen Jr absent from the glory ground. Say Liang did a great job and he seems to be very famous in that area in the street. When he do the moves, everyone was cheering for him and we all did the Joey favourite action. Because it is the sign to acknowledgede the profession in that particular person. Lol!

Yesterday was the day that I will remember for life! I don't know how to express my happiness in words. I am too overjoy!!! Whole world going to know what is happening soon. =D The news is spreading quite fast like a wild fire. And I am sure those who knows are very happy for us! =D

Finally its raining and I shall end my post here. Haha! I am a happy man...=D

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 10:52 AM

The unhappiness inside me, I don't know where to vent out. So I once again decided to seek help from the power of blog again. I help not because I am not angry. It is because I don't want to ruin gladys birthday. As her best friends don't you all know how overboard you go? Do you all even know that keith and I don't even intend to go escape? How much money we wasted and didn't even make it worth. Our mood are even ruined. I can choose to curse you all to oblivion and spoiled all your plans too. But I choose not to, because I don't want to mak history repeat itself. I am sure you all knew about 7-11 and I don't want see that again.

I was tramatized by how you all handle things. Still have the cheek to try to chased us off. You know the consquences of that if you all did succeed? And one last thing... YOU ALL NEVER EVEN SAY SORRY OR SHOW SOME GRATITUTE TO US OTHER THAN GLADYS!!! IF WE EVER DAO YOU ALL SHOW YOU OUR UNHAPPINESS, WE HAD ALL RIGHT TO DO SO!!! Next time we ps... don't ever blame us!!!

*Here is the story about just now. I won't keep this as a secret because we are not in the wrong. I am so unhappy that I truely needed to vent out. Please mind your language if one of you intend to tag or complain about this post. Don't mind you complain, infact you all don't have the right to complain.

Daren, Mel, Keith and I suppose to meet at Mel house at 12.30pm. I went late and in the end all reached Bishan bus stop at 1.15+pm. Since the journey is long, we are really late and I thik we made gladys and Lai Shi Yun waited for nearly an hour. My apology to you two. While on the journey Esther called and ask where are we and she use this phrase," we are going to shot you all shortly."( Wrong Word though ) And when we reached Escape, (Down Town East there for those who don't know) they still at AMK MRT waiting for Mei Sen. Knowing that today going to Xing birthday still seek help in school about sch work till so late. I don't know what you are thinking about but at least shouldn't make the others so late too. After quite sometime we recieved news that they gone to bake cake instead of meeting us in Escape. This totally spoiled our mood and too down to play any rides. Can't even enjoy while playing. And I never even heard any sorry or thank you from them, even though the damage had been done. At least a thank you will cool us a little. Just a little and also at least won't make me that angry. Nevermind, still want us to bring gladys to Si Mei!?!?! Shouldn't you all be here at the first place?

Don't know the baking cake part is already planned or just think of it the idea? If it is already plan idea, is even worst!!! Why ask us to waste money to go Escape and spoiled everyone mood just to suprise one? Can you all please care about the other people feelings? While we are moodless, suddenly Daren phone rang and it was Eugene. Eugene wanted us to meet him for dinner at Hou Gang after that. I knew something was wrong immediately but I did no action. Until when we decided to leave, this is where we hold the power to spoil everything or help you all do something to repay. And I decided to be a good guy, so I convinced the others to go to meet Eugene for dinner. On the way there I sms him to try to get some info. Knew it they had plan along. This where another party was made used.

When we reached there and finished our dinner that time, I got to know that they intend to chase us off. What kind of friend are you all calling? Shouldn't you all show some trust? We help you all this far are not just for show. Is to solve things the best way as possible. Thats why I purposely made all of us stay. And of course we wanted to stay!!! Remember one thing, don't ever use ruse on people with IQ higher than yours. I promised if the same thing happen to you all again I will not help le. Trust me one person do make a difference.

Hopless soul... I can make you perished!!! Never repeat the lights of it insolence......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 10:52 AM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The test of MR.Ah.HOCK!!! Not advisable for those who have a weak heart... And is for fun fun de, pls pardon those word that shouldn't be in the test...lol!

Create your own Friend Test here

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 1:28 AM

Try my new friend test... For those who think my previous test was hard... It is more easiest...Lol!

Create your own Friend Test here

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:50 AM

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Happy Vesak Day to all! Back to post something, or else people would start complaining. Is not that I am abandoning my blog, is just that I prefer to use the time to do other things. Lol! Anyway blog is not about the quantity of your post, but to let people know how you feel about something or someone. It is about the quality and the structure and as I said not quantity. So hope you all will understand. Now I think I Will only post when I have the urge to, just like now. Haha!

Just watch a movie call Zhao Shu or 2 Young. The show is very touching and the make me had a hard tie holding back my tears. Too touching until almost cry. Zzz... Lol but luckily manage not to have any drop of tears in my eyes. A recommended show to watch. Watched it when you all have the time barhx. =D

The show main character is Fang Zhu Ming ( Chen Long Son ) I don't like him personally but the show is nice so I watched on. The show is about 2 young couple that is in love. They recklessly had sex after being drunk and that made the girl pregnant. After the girl father knew about this, he blew at his top and forbit the girl to be with the guy. He even lock her at home without communicating device. She somehow manage to escape and eloped with the guy. They found that they had a hard time surviving on their own and become very depressed. The guy try his best to hold all responsibility but luck was not on his side. He got sack numerous time due to some things cork up. So in te time of desperateness he seek theft. Luckily the guy parents found them at the right time just before he girl was about to give birth. The baby was prematured due to lack of nutrient and because the mother can only aford to eat can food everyday. When the mother was giving birth the father was being prosecuted for abduction because of the newborn child grandfather reporting to the police. And so they brought the matters to court. The grandfather was a rich lawyer and at the end part he defend the father. Such a huge twist but a quite funny part. Because his expression changed from cool to cheerful.
In the end, the father still had to serve his punishment in rehabitation centre for 3 months. I think the judge mad a good choice, so that he can think of how to takecare of his new family within this 3 months.=D

The moral of this story is: Don't get marry until you are able to do so. This is what my mum always told me and I feel that it is very true. This words make an impact in my heart. If you love somebody it does not means that you have to be with her. It only means you must let her e happy.

The best quote: The girl to the guy mother:" I don't feel that he is making me suffered. I love him that is enough." And the other one is the guy's mother to the guy's father:"I also don't feel I suffered with you, during all this times I never had one quarrel with you. Although you never say it but I know you love me deep inside."

Watched this show and you sure won't regret and you also may understand why me and choon make that vow to the stars. LOL!!! I promised I will work hard from now on le. I don't want my wife to suffer with me next time. Wahaha! My dream age to get married is 22 years old, so now I must start saving already.Zzz......Never mind is for love. Wo Wei Ai Er Sheng!!!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 8:20 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Create your own Friend Test here

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:15 AM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Recently, I am so stressed that I do not want to do anything but sleep. Stress because of alot of factors and not just one. I always tend to take things lightly because I solely believe in seriousness was not born in first. So this suggest that what yu can solve with being serious, can be solve more effective without being serious. Of course at times, you must be serious of something to let people know whats right and wrong. In this case, to make the efficiency go up you have to be serious.

For me that is not the case. I want to be myself and solve this my way. But there is too much things cork up my style. In seriousness, I can't concentrae well in solution, and it take more time for me to find a good plan. In the end, I still failed to help. I really cant bear to see people in wreck feeling. I will try my best to help in any way I can, but as for the thing we did our best. Hope you understand my friend and don't be in that condition for a very long time. We still had to study for O'level. XD

I believe good things will come at the right time. Your destined one will also come at the right time I believe. Time really let us reflect upon ourselves and what you have done wrong can be change now. Do your best and I am sure you will have good blessing.

A man blinded with ____ cant find its way......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 8:25 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Happy Birthday Clement and Happy Mother's Day to all!!!

I had quite an adventure yesterday and today. It was absolutely fun and exciting. It had alot of climax. If I am given another chance to write the essay memories it will be a perfect piece. XD Yesterday, I do alot of things for the 1st time. You see Clement because of you I lost so many virgin of things at one go. Lol! Ok I going to post some of our adventure out.

We gather at Vivo for the most fabulous meal with Clement. Actually I don't plan to eat anything and just freeload the plain water. But aiya must give face to our dear friend Clement and this fellow Hong Wei and of cause the monkey and so call Issac Newton Teckie Choon. Lol! Or else I had to prepare to hear some teaching or doctrine. My reason for not eating because I never plan to pay and it is very paiseh for people to pay so much and all you do is eat. Haix... Never mind, I plan to contribute a small amount of money. So, soon after our Project A mission recieved. Everyone scattered and find means and ways to cheat Clement and find the best way to reach his house before he returns home finding his friend.

A girl name Wan Ling and I recieved one of the toughest job. Phew, our scheme was not expose, it was really a very close shave. We still must act like couple!!! I very paiseh lor. First time in this kind of situation. Lol! And still there are people who treat being lost as fun. SianX! Clement house is super hard to find. Lol! And must remember who is my invisible friend Andy hor. Lol!

Ok now I post about today, I went to buy cake with my sister and Hong Hui. Then meet up with my Bro accidentally. Lol! Went to Far East Plaza with artless confidence and at the same moment plan what to do. So the final plan was to lure my mother to a big round back to the new best2 shop and sing my Guai Ban Happy Birthday to Mother's Day. Then shouted MAMEE WO MEN AI NI at the end of the song XD!!! I am the only one who shouted it though, but I can see from her face that she was really move and surprise. She said it was the best mother's day she had so far in her life. I am really glad to hear that. So me and Hong Hui stayed and play chess whole day. Lol!

I will post till here and good night to everyone. I am so stressed that I am going to explode.

Cry of the lost soul in dilemma......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:23 AM

Friday, May 04, 2007

Yo! Yesterday finally meet up with Jowell. The main purpose was for the tixes , but also at the same time meet up with this good friend of ours. We waited and waited at the Orchard MRT and finally he called. He said he will reached there late.XD Then 15 minutes later, our star arrived. We went to Best2 1st new branch. It was big and spacious. Din expect to see Shi Gong and Shi Ma. We went to eat soon after, and chit chat abit then we move to taka for a shoping spree. We walk for sometime and decided to settle down in mcdonald and awhile later we went home in seperate ways.

Now should be a time to study, but alot of people not in the mood so do I. How? I don't know what could improve my motivation.Haix just move on and see how barhx.lol!

Post till here.....

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:41 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Haix... Just when I free to blog, I lost those passion. I try to post as best as I can.

Last Friday, Infocomm Club " Graduation Ball " made alot of people very emmo. Those tears of farewell, those tears of memories were shed by some. Its a memorable day indeed but my tears still not flowing. I did feel emmo but I did not show it out, I won't cry due to the promise. I travell home with those past memories with me. The only time I was hardworking in media club was Sec 2 and Sec 3. Other time I was just slacking all the time, remember the days we muting the teachers mike without getting caught. So funny and the teachers were still so blur and did not know what was going on. The times, the days, the place too much to remember. PA crew all of you will be in my heart forever. I will miss you all!!! Jia Lin Kamate and be a good leader of the crew! All the best...XD

Wei Liang I know that you have been rather emmo for quite a long time. I don't know how to put it to words how I feel and I wish you all the best. Just a word of knowledge, I think you had became emmo for the wrong reason. Love or crush is something sweet, something happy, something that warm hearts. It is not something to tear for, not something to emmo and not something to sad about. Love is what people long for and make people envy! Hope you understand what I meant. Wish you luck to improve your emmotion......

The longer it goes, the harder it take......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:46 AM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Suddenly have the urge to post. Today post shall be a super random post. Due to the fact that my life is simple, as I am trying to achieve the highest level of enjoyment. XD What do that mean? It sound so chim that I don't even have a single plan how to achieve that. Since I am a person that can pass exam without much studies, so this will be quite easy attainable for me. I think the highest level of enjoyment is that nothing in this world will ever worries you again. You can solve problem with smiles over you face. I found this quite useful that I smile most of the time, that even Siva had enough of me! LOL! I had a nickname call the Prince Lol! Name by Eunice. haha! Okay, I think i shall blog about other stuff or else I will go round and round non-stop.

Lets talk about the 3C of Keith new theory. The Cool, Cute, Chio, which one of those represent you? The 3C does not stand by by itself, it holds branches. E.g. Handsome is the branches of cool e.t.c...... This theory is still by Keith. Lol! Actually I think I hold 2 in the 3C, oh gosh I am really bhb! Haha! But seriously it is true, most of the time when I am alone without friends, I just had the cool looks on me and even with someone I knew I do that too. When I feel I had nothing to talk about with them I remain quiet, so quiet that people actually start to think I am anti-social. But with my friends I talk alot and start my lame crap shit. Lol! Most of the time my friend is so funny that you can see me laughing all the time. Which in term the Cute. Still there is special condition to those for me, like when I am down or there is just something I must do seriously or there is an unkown chio girl around. Haha! So now you all know that I am not smiling all the time. Hehe!

The hidden angel smiles......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:58 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

The show that I anticipated, I had finally watched it. It gave quite a big stir in our class and now I knew why. The show was none other than 300. It was a nice movie with great graphical experience of the movie. I like the storyline and indeed the good triumph over the bad! XD

So long never blog for a reason, I had no passion or the feel to blog. Lol! Maybe due to my lazinest? Haha! I had not much things to blog about apart from what I did today. We went to Daren house for mahjong and play basketball later. As usual Keith would be the one whom brighten up the day. He even create some rythm and song for mahjong. =.= Example: Eat or pong or toker toker tong... Wahaha! We we like what was that? Lol!

Ok, I think I shall stop here. Next time then I blog more. Cya! NiteZ!!!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:30 AM

Friday, April 06, 2007

My tired soul wanted to rest, but it rather blog first. The feeling and emmotion will not be the same after moments of periods. So better to do it straight while the source is still fresh in mind. Fun, fun and still fun were the words to describe my trip to East Coast with a few friends. It suppose to be a gather, which turn out to be a outing. Due to people were not free! Was psing my other group of friends worth it? Maybe so?

We went to have luch first at Burger King and I had a big double Whopper meal. Not really nice, I thought. Should have gone to Mcdonald instead, because I like the double cheese burger and the fact that it is cheaper. So straight after we went to rent our bugget bikes. The rental fee was just $5 for two hours and a free drinks. The bikes not really good though. We had so much fun, beat boxing, screamos, singing, chit chatting, e.t.c...... Kian Yong ride bicycle is really dangerous must keep a look out. You might not know when you will be bang by him. LOL!

Indeed it was a right choice? Hehe!

My Story:
Every pages a story, every chapter a sorrow.
Every book a quote, every series a moral.
But it will not be complete without you.
Be my princess......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 10:14 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Time to have a great time in my blogging world again. 2 days ago, I did my 2.4km run for NAFA. This year I did an impossible, because this was my very first time I ran non-stop. I came in first in our class due to the fact that Daren and Zhan Yu miscaculated their rounds. LOL! The squad 6 Captain and Vice-Captain, did they plan it? Wahaha! Although I finished the run within a good time, still I endured pain. The pain around my diaphrm area which know as stiches and the cramp at my leg. Never mind since everything had ended for me, then I can forget about running 2.4km this. Woot!

Yesterday, Gladys and Mei Sen ask me one question. Will you put the photo of your girlfriend in your wallet? I said yes but I couldn't explain why to them at the point in time. I ask them the same question and they said they won't. They also couldn't explain the reason. I seriously think that putting your girlfriend picture is a sweet thing to do. It can give you motivation when you lose faith in something you do. E.g. when you lose faith to work and you saw your girlfriend picture in your wallet, you would gain motivation by thinking I must work hard to get marriged with my girlfriend. When you are lonely and you look at your girlfriend picture, you will remember some of the sweetest moments together and you won't feel as lonely when your girlfriend was not around you. This is it and hence, I will put my girlfriend picture in my wallet in the future.

To My Angel:
Once I thought I saw an angel, figure so captivating.
Every word said a lyric, every sentence a song.
But no, it wasn't an angel.
It was you.

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:50 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

The weather was perfect and the temperature was just so right, but my mood was down in the morning. Due to several reason and and several unfortunate event made me very moody. I tried very hard to swap with my alter ego and luckily I succeed. Once a fortune teller told me I am a person who will not be depress, even if so I will become normal after a short while. I found this quite true. Thanks to Kungful mahjong too that I be able to be cheerful so fast. Lol!

Yesterday, I went to Sentosa and the weather was so nice but I have no passion to go to beach. I just want to slack the whole day but I can't. Never mind is worth to sacrifice for class gathering. I slack with Kian Yong at the rock just above the sea. We talk like we use to and this time with a beautiful scenery. We talk about my music life and abit about my love life. I even beatbox and he rap along. It was good. Heh! Heh! Btw to my peers, is not that I do not want to confess is just that I cant bring out this kind of courage to approach her on that. When times get longer, things get more harder.

After we got bored, we joined the rest in the ball games. In the soccer I scored two goals and the game last only 10 minutes or so. We played other games later. We had this frisbee game and there is penalty on that. If one player failed to pass properly on failed to catch the frisbee they had to decide whether to chose a true or a dare. I got a true and a dare. ROAR!!! I first time play and they bully me. Zzzz...... I said out who I had a crush on, but luckily I think I said too soft and not many people hear. Haha! I doubt they even remember too. XD

In the fall of the night,
my butt hurts, my mucleous flowing out
I pretend to grumble......
But in truth, it was me who cant bear to leave......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:02 AM

Saturday, March 31, 2007

In the afternoon when I am in the midst of the game, two of my old buddies came and visit me. They give me a suprise visit. Lol! Its quite a pity, because I am about to leave house to Keith house. So when we leave my house I accompany them to Toa Payoh central and we went seperated ways. On our journey, we talk about some things on romance. All of them had already stead before except me. Sob!

The greatest reason why I still not in a relationship is due to my shyness I suppose. From the 1st crush till now, I never even confess in person once. Although I so call "confess" once and it was not in person. So I does not considered it to be a confess. Furthermore, she neither reject nor accept. Heard alot of stories after that. It hurts me more than the person when I make her cry. Who to believe and who not to doesn't matter anymore. Now, the question is when I am going to confess to the girl I currently like? Maybe I am terrified of rejection or maybe if I know she likes me things would be easier. I trust fate would give me this chance in times to come, if thats is our affinity.

When to eat scissors cut curry rice at Jalan Besar with Kei they all. After the famish meal, we went to bugis and do a window shopping. We got whole lots of laughter during the journey. Melvan forgot to sit down on the seat in the MRT when the train was moving from Marina to Raffles place and his seat was taken away. LOL!

Sometimes, I feel that my blog is the only friend that I can really count on for the let off of my burden. In school and anywhere else, I seem like a very cheerful and a guy with no worries but deep down, I cant lie to myself. I also need someone to release my trouble and need someone to consult for guidance when in dilemma. But at home. Zzz! I pity my godfather, I always quarrel with him and this is one way to let all that out. But I don't like to quarrel with him either, cant he just let me have my freedom? Zzzz...

There is smoke in my eyes, and that is your soul......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:52 AM

Friday, March 30, 2007

It's time for me to post again. There is so much inside me and I don't know how should I express it out? I shall try whatever I can to post.

First, I should start with oral. Miss Shamila give a conversation topic to Gladys asking her," Who is the person you admire most?" What about my most amire person? I admire my mum most. There is too much reasons in this. She teach me the way of life, she even made me improve on alot of my skill indirectly. She convert me from a guy who likes to showoff to a compose and humble guy. Although I kept singing and beatboxing, but I don't consider it as show off. It has became my habbit already and further more I never sing or beatbox using my high level technique. Still got alot of things to say in this topic but I do not wish to share.

There is this question reutering in my head. How to define a good friend? I thought I already understand, but actually I am confuse. Never mind, I will get the answer someday. The answer that I seek, never fail to find me. Once again, I will be good to all people around me. If you have any problem and you are willing to share, then you will gain my help. Within troubles, there is still something call friends. At least that is what I believe.

ROAR! My hand is hurts from break dancing. I am getting hang of quite alot of things and I am improving very fast. Within a year I believe I can considered myself as a bboy. Yes, I can do! Hence, I shall succeed.

I hope I am not accurate to know who____. This is the only time I really hope I am wrong and I hope even if it is true, don't let me find out. I will be moodless even though I wont be depress.

Beneath your soul, is there thoughts of me?

I am a untrustable kid when I was young. I tell lies and spread others secret. Until one day, I finally realised my mistake when I was in Primary 5 and I became a most sealed lip ever. Lol! The thing that motivate me is from a show......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:44 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

A badminton spree happened today. 6 hours of badminton for some but for me only 3 hours. In the meanwhile of the badminton I went for bd training. Learn alot of things today! Although I get to play 3 hours but still got a match never play. Weiliang and Me(note: I purposely cap it) vs Gladys and Mei Sen. I caps the m in Me because everyone all in capital letters so I don't to be odd one out. LOL! Lame...=.= Then Mei Sen say she want to 1 on 1 with me. She comfirm wiin liao lor. If you don't believe bet $1 each and I really make it happen XD. Greedy haha!

Went home that time I went to buy my cd, everyone ps me except Keith and Eugene. Yay! I appreciate that, especially keith because he know how to recipocrate. This show I never see his character wrongly. Thanks both of you make my trip not too lonely.

When I reach home leg and arm all very tense up. Enlightenment for me, it make me realise that how slack I am in my training of weights nowadays. Someday I must recover my routine of exercise again!

Deep in my sunken hearts, all you can see......

I am a bad boy in Pri 4-6, I did gangster man. But I not one, I even more fearsome than them I should say......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:07 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

I cut my hair and now my pimples are visible, damn! I will destroy my pimple by this week. I decided to buy a Warcraft 3 battle chest as I feel insecure as now I solely depend on battle.net because my zion is down. If I kept using the cd key of other I would feel weird and tend to not concentrate well as I afraid others want to play too. So this is why I decided to buy my very 1st warcraft 3.

Today ran 8 rounds for PE, super cool. If my nafa is the same time as the time I finished the rounds I will be estactic. Wahaha! I even walk one round but my time is 10.58min. Yeah! PE is 1hr but we only get to run. SianZ!!! Not really happy after PE, I think I smells and today it happen several times to me that I see things that I shouldn't be seeing and I don't want to see. Zzzz...... I hate to see things that I hate to see, I rather I did not see it! Who would want to see them? LOL!

Ya! Maths extra lesson I finally get to outshine my talents. Finally a topic that I am good at. Wahaha!

I stop using milk bottle to drink milk only till I am Pri3

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 5:49 AM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Alot of people asking me to join campus superstar. My answer is no!!! There is alot of factor in my answer. The First was because of O'level and another because I am confident that my level of singing is beyond that of campus superstar. Even though there is people in campus sing better than me but I perfer to be known as an adult than a child. So Project Superstar here I come. XD
Now I had no time to train my singing, but wait for me I WILL BE BACK!!! Wahahaha!!!

Have you all ever wondered why things happen? Things happen for reason that is for sure, but why different people have different happenings? Isn't it unfair? Or is it the test for different people. Everytime I met something hard I treat it as a test to fulfilled. Sometimes I passes but other time I failed to do so. Look at things in other perspective and may success be with you.

I look into your eyes in accident and this is the first time after a year I have shy away again. ARR!!! Not just me, but you too......

I do not detest my father, I despise him......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:32 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Yesterday, went to class gathering. I thought there will be alot of people cause KY say there will be other classes people attending also. Ended up there is only 6/5 people + 2, haha! Heard that JY scared of me. LOL! So funny lar, just because I like her once doesnt mean she must afraid of me. I will not eat her up or stuff like that. Then there I saw this particular old friend and I find her resemble _____ in some ways. Didn't notice it till now, haha! When I look upon her, my hearts is with you. Thats is what I meant of so far yet so near.

Later after eating dinner at pizza hut, we went to talk and Choon join us on the way. I think people mistook us as gangster. We walk in a very huge group and we laughing at each other weak points on the way. So funny and I laugh till I never laugh before. KY is the worst of all no matter what or everywhere of him get insulted. Feel abit sorry him, but all this is only play play so I think no one will take it to heart.

When we about to go home, we talk about supernatural and stuff like that. This make alot of people don't there to walk home.LOL! What is there afraid about? When you never do anything that harm people they won't huant you. XD

Maybe when you know the reason why you love someone, you will love them even more. My first piority to love someone is to know why I love her......

I feel terrible each time I failed to help someone......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:36 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

I had change my blogskin due to popular demands. And thanks to Keith I finally settle down my chosen blogskin. Yet, we do have a little problem here. THE POPUPS STILL HERE!!! Lol! Later going to the Primary School Gathering. I am very anxious about later now. Woot, it has been long since there is a gathering like this. XD

Now Feister had a screwed life. Haha! We gamble, we eat____, we ____ ____ and __ ____ ____. Wahahaha! It is fun though. Keith was like father forgive me for I have sin, Daren was like HOLY SHIT! Melvan cant stop laughing, HE GONNA LOSE IT! Me? No comment......LOL!

In Chinese and English, there is so much character and so much words, but I have only one favourite word. That word is hearts. Next time then I eleborate on this, cause now I lazy to think. Haha!

My secret code: TUWS

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:45 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

I am not suppose to be here right now, but I wake up late for maths extra lesson. So HECK CARE liao! Wahaha!

There is this particular song I like it alot. The first time I heard it I was deeply attracted to it already. Its melody seem like peircing through my heart. The lyrics sang make those lost memories appeared again. I decided to learn that song but till now to no avail yet. I cant seem to sang that feel out. I will try slowly, cause I dont have time for singing now.

Histugya blog got this quote:" What is not yours will never be yours."

Quite true to some extent, but in my dictionary I don't have this. I beileve what is not yours can be yours. The probality is low...Yes it is. If you work hard enough you can turn a low carbon steel rod to a gold moutain. The only thing is how much you sacrifice for it? How much desire you put in it? Do other people give in more than you? That is the question to be answered by thyself.

I long for family warmth......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:31 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I am feeling better today. My emmotion has calm down already. To achieve it I did something insane. As my nick was Prince of Fire, so Keith always make fun of this and say Prince on Fire. LOL! Hence, I make everyone in Fire! Wakekekeke!

The Pictures is on the post before this. It's abit lame so endure with it. LOL!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 9:28 PM

Presenting the new century Ghost Rider, Ghost Rider Kia. Can't let in fear! Flame is my path, Fire is my destiny is the quote before he transform......

The new century Ghost Rider Kia. Has put Shuang Fei on fire, next moment they become GHOST RIDER!!! ROAR!!! GRRRRRR!!!!!

Then again, he change his friends to Ghost Rider. Muhahaha!!! FEAR US!!!

The Ghost Rider FeiSteR had went bonkers. Becareful they are coming for you bad souls......

(This is the only pic my eyes got cool fire effect.) The dooms sight......"Your blood is staint with innocent soul......"

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 9:09 PM

Dissapointment is filled in me. So many things that I can see so clearly but yet I choose to be blinded in the illusion. Maybe I am a person so easily influence. I try to be there for everyone who needed me but when in times to come I am alone when I needed help. Feel so helpless sometimes and no one came to help me. It is time for me to fight alone again! When I am drowning in a deep ocean and when none came to help, I will find the planks that would save my life. I just woken up from illusion that I chose to stay in.

I know god is giving me this test to depends on myself and not to rely on others. Please note my god is not christ. No offence, but I don't believe in a religion that it will only save its believeth or being a sinner when you never done anything wrong. I am proud to say that I am a mixture of Buddhist and a Taoist.

I will do what my mother say already. I will try not to help others, until I can help myself. For me when I failed to save a soul I will be very depress but I will overcome it. Like I will overcome those dissapointment and found a true meaning in all this.

I most of the time will leave the best for the last. But sometimes I will not when there is a sequence.

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 3:22 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

Everyone is so high so happy, but for me I end my term 1 with a dull feeling. What is that to be joyful for me when my result is so lousy! I not a person without feeling or I not person who only know how to laugh, I will feel sad too! It is not just my result that make me so dull, but my friends result too. I care for them also, although I don't show it. When they get bad result it spoil my mood too. Especially you......

You really change alot. Even though you appear happy most of the time but I sense the stressness in your eyes. When I look into your eyes I knew straight that something is bothering you. Last time you are not like that, your result is very good. I am quite dissapointed not just with you but myself too. I noticed that your action is abit different from last time after you mixed with different company. I seriously miss the old you infinity and beyond. Never mind something will still never change even in this world is totally change, that is my ____ for you!

Today:
Have my very first breakdance session with JR and Sei Liang. Thanks you all! I will practiced very hard for you all. Lol! Since you have such faith in me that I can join competition next time. I will do the favour for you. XD

On the way to eat before the breaking session I saw Fiona and she transfer to another school! Now then I know... =.=

I have plan out what should I do in March holiday already......

I have another blog and I shall reveal the blog when the time is right. There only have one post. Is either when I don't have the crush anymore or I got rejected or when she and I are together shall I reveal it......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:33 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Some parts of bit and pieces of me had return but it still not me yet. Finally my speed of walking is back at my past pace, I am a speed demon! But for some reason I feel something is still missing in me! What is it? It makes me feel very empty and an undescribable feeling. Maybe I am just worrying too much or am I just too paranoid? One thing is for sure and it is that recently I am been asking too much question even if it is a rheotical ones. I know the freaking thing and I just kept asking things like I do not know! Whats up with me???

Today moodless, still worried about what to do for my studies? How to get my Ace? Is the CA too hard or is it that I really don't have the ability to score high? I did try to try hard but I failed myself.

Accompanied Keith to find his folio and on the way buy his PS3. It did not went well as his folio could not be found and PS3 had not arrivied yet. We waited for a freaking 1+ hours and decide to leave till the next day to buy. I brought my mahjong game and won two rounds out of 4 and it is not as fun as the idols mahjong which I played in my younger days. Yup on the way we met Eunice and her boyfriend. Haha! I pronouce his name correctly! Wahaha!

The last time I drop my tears is for my father and for that I promise not to cry anymore. A true man tears is worth honouring but not those people like Ashaf(no offence). My tears worth more than theirs! I truely wonder who will be the first one to make me cry again?

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 5:41 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Moments of truth, the music that I must face. The result of not studying hard and still slacking, I am screwed! I am so d*** demoralise by my total score, I had no one but myself for this cause. Forgive me people that I promised. I make another empty promises yet again. I once said that I will finish up all the homework and pass up it on time, I failed to do it too. I think that I really let down alot of people including myself.

I am losing it, I must help myself from now on. Please give me strength to move on. I felt that I am not really myself, even though people kept telling me that I am the only one they never seen a change in character even all others had change. But I can feel it that I start to lose myself, I can't just lose it! Is it due to the intense stress causing by the terrible O' level. Or is it some other things that are eating up my soul? Can't figure out this much and my d n t are lagging behind!!! What else could I do? I will use the March holiday to find back myself and find back the one burning in flames of hopes and trust. The destiny is chosen by me and not others. I must decide and work doubly hard for it.

I once said that I crush somebody for 6 years but actually it is just 3 years. I said that because 6 years sound cooler. Haha! What was I thinking?

I want you to know how I feel about you but with the help of no others...

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 4:36 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Happy Belated Birthday Mum

Yesterday was my mum birthday and can considered it as not a happy one. One of the thing I am most afraid of happen to me again( NOT BECAUSE OF CREEPY CRAWLERS! ). I saw someone in need of help but I was helpless, I can't save him and I know he did no wrong. I hate being helpless to help! It break my hearts when I saw my cousin getting beaten up his father with a cane BECAUSE OF US!!! My mum even break into tears and I almost shed a tear but I am able to hold it back. It is very hard to really visualize how the atmosphere in the area but if you were me you will understand.

When my uncle was beating up my cousin I really had a strong urge to rush in to the room to stop him and to scold him. He did not even know what really happen and he start wacking. He just kept shouting why you never listen to me? WHY? Maybe my cousin got wrong but can't he use his brain to think? It is my mum birthday, even a child know how to make my mum happy but him? A WANG EN FU YI FREAK! Has he forgotten how my mother help him? How much my mother give to clear his debt? He didn't even pay back and it is a huge lum sum of money. My mother just want a HAPPY-BIRTHDAY thats all and you make her sad.

Not that I don't want to save my cousin but if I do it, he will get harsher punishment when I am gone. What in my mind at the point in the time is to ask him, what is the purpose of him beating my cousin? What is the reason for not letting my cousin celebrate my mum birthday? Is the purpose of beating because he disobey you or is it because of your damn face? Is the reason for not letting my cousin celebrate my mum birthday to anger my mum?

After saying so much I know you all want to know what really happen that day. My cousin came down to Far East Plaza alone just to say happy birthday and to celebrate my mum birthday by treating her to a meal. He is just 11 years old! He came with the guilt of disobeying his father but obey my grandmother. Whose power is greater? Of cause grandmother right? In the end my cousin treat my mum, my brother and of cause me, although later the price he gave was half as mum's friend return him half of it. Thats is the happening yesterday. Finally we went to his house and you know what happen next......

I am afraid of creepy crawlers!!! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:35 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

Yo! I am back for some posting again. This will be my secong post today.

As you all know we had Cross Country today. After the Cross Country when I take out my umbrella, Mei Sen suddenly start a conversation. The conversation is about we two being the weird in the Libra in horoscope. Lol!

She said that," look at Joe and us, we are like heaven and earth compare to him."( I rephrase this in my own words but meaning is the same. ) She also note that she and I is so active, but Joe is so quiet. I had think through this process of conversation on my way home from J8. Lol! Nothing to do marhx. Heh! Heh! Am I really that talkative? Is it my real true self to be monkey all the time? The answer is a big NO! I am not that active by nature, I am actually a quiet person and yup like what Mei Sen say we only are so active when we are with someone close. Example our close friends, family e.t.c....... I actually label myself as a deep in thoughts person. Which means that I always think through alot.

I don't know about Libra horoscope characteristic, but I do know about my chinese horoscope another type and it is more chim. This horoscope got alot of type, if I am not wrong is 30 in total. From my chinese birthday, I am the Xin, which also means heart. It says that I had two type or more character. A person who awaits true love and will stay loyal to the person he love( Eat Love ). The horoscope still say alot more but I lazy to post out. It is very accurate, because I once told all that to Keith and he agree with me and it. My mum and alot people too. Haha! Chinese way of finding characteristic from horoscope is much better than the English one, I suppose.Forgot to say this but Joe, Mei Sen and I have the same birthday and born in the same year. Same birthday does not imply that got same characteristic but same birthday and same year do have.

I think I will post till here.

GoodnightZ......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:27 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Today Cross Country was a screwed up, 5/1 blockade also screwed up. Waste my prescious to try to block people and still get block somemore. =.= I was block by Wei Hao and he was block by someone else. I run till the middle park of Bishan Park and I stop running due to earlier my shoelace dropout and I must fixed it and it happen a few times, so cant continue. When I stop it is very hard for me to run back as I lost all my stamina already. Hence, I anyhow run run until my shoulder ache. Then, saw Marina, Mastura and Mei Sen, so I decided to run at the same pace with them. Haha! Cannot lose to girls...Wahaha! Last but not least being back at Bishan Park is GREAT!!!

I miss posting emmo blog but I don't think I can post something like this out now. Maybe my English become worst or else I not in that mood to post emmo blog. I try posting some next time round.

Yesterday, meet up with Choon and we have some talks and beat boxing session together. Actually we are planning to play basketball but the Community Center floor is not on condition for us to play. So sad, feel like playing bball yesterday. My Mother birthday is tommorrow and I try to find present for her with Choon yesterday, but I failed to find a good present. Zzzz......

My favourite letters in alphebet are A, K, M, N, Z ... There is a reson why I like M and N in alphetbetical order. Not the chocolate. Haha! I represent N and my mum represt M, I love my mum so much so I always put her before me. M come first before N marhx. So this reason is acceptable and good! Yeah! LOL!

I watched porn at Primary 4! But I stop watching it from the beginning of Sec 4. So please don't temp me with it already. This kind of porn websites are harming people modesty. My advice is stop surfing porn website if you haven't do it. Those movies kind of nudity is alright as they show it with their own free will and is legal. Lastly it is not hardcore and some points of veiw it is artistic......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 7:16 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Just reached home from praying Ti Gong. This year ceremony is faster than the past years. Haha! So I get home too early for sleeping and I decided to blog. My mum birthday is coming soon and I need help on getting a idea what to get for her. Can everyone who has an idea please tag me and enlighten me. Don't care about my budget 1st. Thanks in advance. XD

Yesterday, went to Weiliang and Julia house to visit. I bring my sister along and she acted as my girlfriend. It was so fun that I punked so many people. Wahahaha! But as I thought the spoiler will be Esther. Walau, I havent have enough fun. LOL! Finally, sad to say sorry Winnie you have a wasted trip. =D

I told Geraldine that in my blog alot of things is fake but infact it is the opposite. I told her that because I want to punked people. LOL! Lets be assure that everything in my blog is true, true to the bottom of my hearts. So if you all have visited my blog frequently, you will not get punked. Muhahahaha!

I got to worked hard already. From now on I will try my best to help myself in studies. I should do what I can do and not always trying to learn what I do not know. So I can finally master somethings that I suppose to master. Just like studies......

Give you all a quote today: The things you can get, even if it is a treasure it will become a worthless object, even when times of needs. But if you cant get it you will treat it as treasure and see it better than your own life. Hence, it is better to learn how to make one then put own your hands and ask for it. By my mum......

I have crush on a total of three girls and admire 2......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 9:10 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Today time passes quickly as usual. I am seriously unhappy with my chinese result as well as english. I know I can do well but how could this happen? I failed my English and having a borderline mark for my chinese. I suppose to work hard. Zzzz...... Yeow Wei ar Yeow Wei, faster wake up! Hope the new seating arrangement will change my feng shui. My new place is at the front door, it is at the north side of the class. Didnt know my classroom feng shui same as my godfather house feng shui. Lol!

Two days ago, I got to play a drumset. It is easy to play but i never play it that much as it is at a HDB flat. If play too loud I scared people would complain. Now my knowledge about drum getting higher. =D

I found out that I can be really emmotional at times.

I once steal $50 to buy cards and almost steal $14 for my brother. But now I will never steal again! Taking things that doesn't belong to you will have karma and it will make us pay for what we have done!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:09 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

TODAY IS A UNLUCKY DAY FOR ME! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!!

Firstly, during P.E. I was wack for no reason, I didnt defend Wei Hao in basketball still tio hit. Zzzz. Lol! Then during English lesson, Li Si Yun seat and mine got swop due to her big mouth and Mastura Sabo. ROAR!!! With this still not really demoralise, but WTH. While we four was walking home, a bird shit drop on my hands. EEEEEEEEEK!!! Damn... Why am I so unlucky today?

I never mastu***** before. So never mention that all guys do it. (",)

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:54 AM

Monday, February 19, 2007

Happy Birthday

Daren Chan Keng Loo!!!

Wow, it have been so long I read someone blog with such enthuaism. I think good english really turn people on. This make me even more upset, because I found out english is not even close to standard! Sob......

Today, I was reading my past sms from friends. There is one particular sms clear my few months old doubt, with the help of a memory of a conversation with him.(",) So to say, having a record of sms is good. Sometimes it helps to clear doubt, but not just keep record of sms, also keep others as well. Haha!a

After much thinking process of a phrase, I finally come to a conclusion. The phrase True to Music (By Kian Yong Interpretation ), is just an excuse to me. It is a good excuse though, SERIOUSLY!!! By what Kian Yong had told me," all those people who is true to music only stick mainly to one genre"(written in my own words). He got his points, now is time to hear mine. It is an excuse because, it is really hard to learn all genre in music. Being good at singing is not an easy task not to say learning all genres. For some people, they can't even master one genre. Lol! So it is not surprising people come out with this excuse and I seriously it is a very good excuse to use. Lol! I AM JUST BEING TRUE TO MUSIC!!! LOL! Sorry but I going all round in music, so to say I am going to master all genres in music. All the best for me =D

I once almost commited shoplifting, but I felt guilty so I walk back to the supermarket and put all the thing I steal back to its original place. If that day I really steal it, I think today I will choose the other path of the route......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 9:11 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

HAPPY CHINESE NEW

YEAR EVERYBODY!!!

I have just came back home from visiting Relative and I got 10 red packets only. LOL! But I think sincerity counts it doesn't matter how many red packet, how much money is inside. I finally get to wear my new clothes and I think is very cool. Haha! Remember everyone to mantain your shape, don't eat too much because the food is fattening! Wahaha!

I NEVER EVEN HAD 1 GIRLFRIEND BEFORE! ARGGG!!! So when I sing, don't blame me if those sweet feelings of love is not there. XD

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:05 AM

Friday, February 16, 2007

Happy New Year Eve!

Watch a show at midnight yesterday, it was a very touching show. It a Korean drama that show a girl with Azmiel disease( I don't know the spelling ), is a disease that will make you senile at a very young age. The show is about her life and how she met this guy. Actually I thought is only a love story but after she change a guy and get married, then she found out she got the disease. After she knew that, she want to get away from this guy so he can find other relationship but the guy cant bear that and she went to search for her......

I want to sing! I want to go KTV!!! New year liao, so ang pao here I come!!! Wahaha! I got the horny bear dp in msn. Muhahahaha! XD Don't know what to post liao so post till here. Must get going already!

Chances never appeared everytime, so when it appear remember to grab and make use of it! Miracle do happen, it also can be created, is whether you rather wait for it to happen or create it yourself......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 11:50 PM

Just came back home from a watching Epic Movie. I don't it is worth my $7.50, because the show end at an hour! It is quite funny but mostly lame, shouldn't have watched. Zzz......

There is alot of memories I have and I really treasure them, it reflect on my past mistakes and remind me of my honour moments. It is great sometimes to think back on them, but I heard that the feelings will not be there if it happen again, so we must really tresure that kind of feelings.

I am falling apart help me! RAWR!!!ROAR!!!!! My hearts has filled up by you and it going to explode soon. When will I be able to pluck up my courage to show my affection? When will I be with you? When......? During Valentine's Day, I saw so many couples around and I am very envy. As usual I spent my Valentine's Day alone thinking of you again. I am a useless freak, I can give advice and strategy to people like I am a real professional, but when it happen to me, I don't know what to do. Its been long since I post something about love because I thought I can handle my feelings. Which I seriously can't!

Hope that the dirty little secret corner that is coming up on my blog can release quite alot of my burden. I going to trust everyone that visit my blog and in this way no one will be able to betray me again. Although I will not post big secret, so people who knows please don't spread if I want to tell I will post in my blog. Thanks alot =D

The course of true love never did run smooth......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:24 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

There are a lot of things in my mind and now, I can't concentrate in O'level even more. Don't understand myself! Haha! Whats wrong with me? I mean it is just an O'level no need to stress myself that hard. Damn! I am going to stop dota for good already, hope I don't play it again.

Today Physic, I got 25/30! My endorphin is gushing out insanely when Mr Yu mark my paper. And it was the first paper somemore. 25/30 is a very good mark but I can get better thanks to the careless mistake. Zzzz... Chemistry, I think I had screwed it, because my mcq answer quite different from Melvan and Daren. Aiya! We three mcq very different. So I very scared, is either one of us get a high mark or none of us get it. You see, Daren and Melvan is good in science so, now I am very worried. Not that I don't have confidence, but is I can't concentrate, because something is buggying me hard.

Yesterday, I suppose to go to KTV with brotherhoods but I cant go, due to my godfather disallowed. Sorry everyone in Brotherhood. Two days ago, I heard from my another buddy from Primary school that he is in Xin Min ITE. Hope he is doing well there and lets be ursure I wont look down on you. You are my friend remember? Yeah! If got chance must ask me teach me how to play drum or jamming. LOL! I want to learn heavy metal also!!! =D

I am trying to go all aspect in music industry. Currently I am learning Rock and R&B, next I think it will be Rythymic and Jazz song? Lastly I think it will be Heavy Metal!!! Wahaha! I am very happy that Jr want to teach me break dance!!! XD I am serious I want to learn!!! Hehe!

Note: I going to change the motivational quote to my dirty little secret corner, it will commence at New Year! Each new posting will have one secret of mine. LOL!

In a fight, the winner is not determine by how heavy your blows are but it determine how many blow you can withstand. In studies it is also the same, the marks you get does not always mean you study more you can get higher marks, but it is how you write it out in the examination.

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 1:42 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Finally, I went to bugis and brought my clothing. Haha! This year I spent around $400 just for clothes already. Lol! But I still not sastisfied will the amounts of clothes I brought, so I am going to buy more. Wahahaha!!! At bugis the jams there was really insane, you can stuck in the middle of a long stretch of road. The road was the place that seperate Bugis Junction and Bugis Street. My godfather was trap there for 5 minutes, whereas, I use strategy to cross rather than use the typical way of crossing that kind of road. XD
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During this time, I finally enlighten by the phrase,"so many things, so little time." I got so many things to do, yet I have not enough time to finish all of them. Wish I still can take it, hope I still can go on. I think I should be able to manage it, due to the strength my "Angel" give me. I am going to make this song 'Angel' 1 of my best song. With preserverance I know I can do it. Hope that nothing will bound me from reaching that level. And as for what will my style of singing that will depends, will it be a sad one? or a Happy one? or maybe other emmotion?
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Will i be able to excel the invisible force that stop me to getting over?

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With power, it came great responsibility or will it turn to disaster? (An add on from me. XD)

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 5:53 AM

Friday, February 09, 2007

Congratulation for people taking O'level result.

Today was really happy to hear my buddy cum partner has produce a great result in O'level. He finally can pursuit his goals to be able to go to the aerospace couse in poly. At the same time I feel sorry for people that did not do as well.

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Here is an advice for people in my class for getting B3 rather than A1 or A2. B3 is a very good grade already, some people can't even achieve that in their subject. Retaking the exam is just a waste of time and grades. Why retake when you can use the time to study for others subject and improve them rather to give up more time because of one big tree? When you improve others subject your grades will be better than your grades for improving at that particular subject which can only improve your grades by 2 point at max. ( No need to take in my advice, just believe and follow your heart )

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When to have a talk with teck choon at the last part of the day, the talk let me remember somethings. A cause will have an effect, so an effect is due to the cause. If you do something must think carefully what is the result of your cause? To revert the effect 1st we must find the cause or else things will be harder to solve. And also remember that serious is not born in first.

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I must do it, I really must. Even if I am in dilemma and doubt. I will never know the result if I never try once. I really do hope history will not repeat and all things go smoothly.

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Sorry make an error in the previous post, spot it yourself. Finally my days has come by during the 1504 days...... I will make a new start or ending in my story???

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 9:57 AM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Today I finished my oral c, but I am sick yesterday, so I don't get much infomation and all the things I present was the thing I just think of. Lol! How pro can I be? That Suicide!!! Luckily Miss Shamila never penalise me for the last 20second where I never finish my speech. Haha! I felt that at the starting part I did quite good. XD
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Sometimes I do not know why but I got this strong urge to cry. Because of the promise I made to myself at Secondary 2-3 I must not cry ever again, I had to hold back even I was hurt badly. I once told myself I must be strong, there is no one that can depend forever. Depending on people is not always as effective as depending on myself. Although I still keep depending on my friend sometimes, but I always had a back up plan and I am a person that is very compose until things get to a serious stage. I don't know why the hell I post this. Maybe because the stress is really coming to me? My headache which I suspect is cause by stressness, when will it be gone?
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If I never count wrongly this is the 1861 days le...... There is still nothing from me...... Continue believing may things turn to suit us? I shall follow my heart and see it happen.......

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 6:11 AM

Monday, February 05, 2007

I am sick for the whole week. Zzz... But the pain inside me does not subside and eventually getting worst. Maybe it is due to too much exhaustion? Cause I had slept all the way this two days. I am like hibernating. Lol!
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Recently I think I cant get off the urge to play basketball. I want the feeling in the basketball court. After stop playing basketball for quite sometime, suddenly the urge to play come back. Lol! People dont hesitate to call me play basketball but dont ask me to play in a time like 7am. Because I wont be able to wake up. Haha. I will be the star playmaker. XD
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Happy Birthday Li Jin

Two days ago is Li Jin birthday. Went to her house to celebrate, it was quite a fun day actually but T5 + Mr Ong Ah Hock Danny go latest. =X That day my luck in gambling is insane, I won all the game except for the last one. But too bad never play money.Haha! Or else I will become a rich ass. Wahaha!

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No need to show your best to others always, show it when really in need. Be compose!

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:50 AM

Monday, January 29, 2007

Why I had this doubt in life that I cannot lift? Why I had to constantly appeared as other self that is really no me? Why I always do things in a much lousier manner when I know I can do alot more better? Why I am so lazy even for my passion?Is it only through singing, then I can find my own trueself?
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As you all noticed that I stop blogging about love, maybe because I feel that I can't find my true love or is it it just not the right moment? I really need to be in that relationship even though it is only once and I would die with no regrets. Even if it is only a day spouse, I wouldn't mind as long there is this undying love living on. With this I could also greatly enhance my singing skill. My feelings rate will be better. For my future and for myself, hope true love will befall!
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Yeah! Jowell, Eunice and e.t.c...... I really missed all of you, hope we do meet up often. =)
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I believe that determination can move god and I had witness that. If you people do not believe you can do a test and observe. You will be amazed. =D

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 12:34 AM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Sian! Most of the blog I frequently go did not update. Lol! Today I decided to post again and not many people realised that I am BACK!!! Wahahaha! I feel marvelous to be able to blog again, this feeling that I had lost during December 3 was finally return. Haha! Now my blog is lack of visitor but I am fine with that. Next time if you all visit my blog remember to leave a tag, it will be appreciated.XD
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23 January 2007 was a unforgettable day for me. I sang a verse of song infront of whole class! I am sorry for not performing the whole song. I had my reason so forgive me. I hold back because I think my skill still havent reach the star level. I had told Choon the other day that I am still stuck on a level that can pass audition but still not the standard to be a star. Until then, I shall perform my best to you all and this time will be a whole. =)
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Now, I am still as lazy as ever. If this continued, I can forget about 6 A1 and I can forget about going to my desired course. I must wake up soon, I don't want to make history repeat itself again. It cause me 1 year of my life and I already live with regret. This time I really must give it my best shot no matter what. Hope everyone would give me their help and support. =D

Th3 Desir3 in my HeartZ only had enough Spac3 for You. 2:52 AM